It's My Life - Melody Carlson [64]
I had invited Jenny to join us tonight, but her mom said no. Big surprise there. But now I'm wondering if Mrs. Lambert plans on locking Jenny up until she graduates. And if she does, how long will it take until Jenny quits eating again? Oh man, would I like to give that woman a piece of my mind! What's up with parents these days anyway? I mean, Beanie's mom doesn't care at all. Jenny's mom seems to care way too much. Sheesh, my parents are looking better and better all the time. Although I still haven't raised the issue of what I think about becoming a missionary with them again.
To be honest I'm almost afraid to consider the whole thing too much. But I have gotten some interesting books about missionaries (including the Jim Elliot one and one that his widow wrote too; now talk about an amazing woman–she stayed down there with their baby and continued to work with the very same indians that killed him!). Anyway, my interest in this whole thing is not going away. If anything, I think it's growing. And so I keep praying that God will lead me and direct me. I mean, I realize that college is important. But I also realize that those kids (at the dump) have very immediate needs. And it's some consolation to me when I send money every couple of weeks (by the way, I came up with the acronym: FAD for Food At the Dump, kind of silly, but it works). Anyway, there's still a strong desire inside me to actually go down to Mexico and live right there by the dump and to really roll up my sleeves and help care for those kids myself. And I think, what's wrong with that? But then I really do know what could be wrong (besides my concerns about codependency). I could be just doing what I want and not what God wants. And I realize how that could just totally blow up in my face. And so all I want is that God would show me what I need to do. In the meantime, I'll do everything I can think of to raise money for FAD.
Wednesday, October 31 (boo!)
Our Harvest Party was a screaming success tonight. And Jenny's mom surprised us all by letting Jenny out of her cage (as Jenny calls it) and allowing her to come help out at the party. I'm not sure if her mom knew it was a church-related thing or not since we held it at the VFW lodge. I think Jenny just told her it was for a good cause. Which, as it turns out, it was!
My best surprise of the night was when the party was all over and we were cleaning up (man, what a mess!), and Pastor Tony walks in and announces that most of the proceeds will be donated to my Mexican FAD fund. Well, talk about happy! I couldn't believe it. Then even though I was tired, I worked extra hard.
But another nice surprise was that Trent came tonight and actually helped out at the Go Fish booth. And he seemed to be having a really good time with the kids too. And I noticed he and Jenny sort of hit it off, which I must admit gave me some mixed feelings. Okay, I know I'm not interested in dating or having a boyfriend, but I admit that I've enjoyed his attention. Is that so wrong? Maybe. I'm not totally sure. But when I saw him joking with Jenny, I think I got just a teeny bit jealous. But I never showed it. And I quickly got over it. And now I kind of hope that they become friends. Who knows, maybe God will use Jenny to reach Trent! On the other hand, I just hope Trent doesn't pull Jenny down. Although she seems like she's getting stronger and stronger in her faith these days. It's weird how that works sometimes. It almost seems the harder a person's life is, the harder they hold on to God. Makes me think we all need to have a really hard life or something. Although I'm sure that's not