J.R. Ward the Black Dagger Brotherhood Novels 1-4 - J. R. Ward [253]
Rhage was a picture of male ecstasy. A fine shine of sweat covered his broad chest and shoulders. His head was kicked back, his chin high, his blond hair falling on the pillow, his lips parted. He was watching her through lowered lids, eyes lingering on her face and her breasts and where they were joined.
As if he were utterly enthralled by her.
She squeezed her eyes closed and pushed his adoration from her mind. It was either that or lose touch with the orgasm she was so close to because the sight of him made her want to weep.
It didn’t take long for her to explode. With a shattering blast, the release swept through her, robbing her of sight and hearing, of breath and heartbeat, until all she could do was collapse onto him.
As her breathing slowed, she became aware that he was stroking her back gently and whispering soft words to her.
In the aftermath she was ashamed, and tears stung her eyes.
No matter who else he’d been with tonight, he didn’t deserve to be used, and that was exactly what she’d done. She’d been angry when it all started, and then she’d shut him out right before she came by refusing to look at him. She’d treated him like a sex toy.
“I’m sorry, Rhage. I’m…sorry…”
She moved to get off his hips and realized he was still thick inside of her. He hadn’t even finished.
Oh, God, this was bad. The whole thing was bad.
Rhage’s hands clamped on her thighs. “Don’t ever regret that we were together.”
She stared into his eyes. “I feel like I just violated you.”
“I was more than willing. Mary, it’s all right. Come here, let me kiss you.”
“How can you stand to have me near you?”
“The only thing I can’t handle is your leaving.”
He took her wrists and urged her down to his mouth. As their lips met, he slid his arms all the way around her, holding her close. The change in position made her acutely aware that he was full to bursting, so hard she could feel the involuntary twitches of his arousal.
He rocked his hips gently against her, sweeping her hair back from her face with his big palms. “I won’t be able to withstand the burn for much longer. You take me so high, I’m licking the ceiling right now. But for as long as I’m able, as long as I can stay in control, I want to love your body with mine. However it starts. However it ends.”
He moved his hips up and down, pulling out, sliding in. She felt herself melting all around him. The pleasure was deep, endless. Terrifying.
“Did you kiss them tonight?” she asked roughly. “The women?”
“No, I didn’t kiss the female, I never do. And I hated it. I’m not doing it again, Mary. I’ll find another way to keep myself from getting out of hand while you’re in my life. I don’t want anyone but you.”
She let him roll her over. As he settled on top of her, the warm, heavy weight of him pressed into the cradle of her body where he was lodged. He kissed her tenderly, licking at her with his tongue, cherishing her with his lips. He was so gentle though he was immense inside of her and his body housed the kind of strength that could snap her in half.
“I won’t finish this if you don’t want me to,” he whispered into her neck. “I’ll pull out right now.”
She brought her hands up his back, feeling the shifting muscles and the expansion and compression of his ribs as he breathed. She inhaled deeply and caught a lovely, erotic scent. Dark, spicy, lush. Between her legs she felt an answering rush of wetness, as if the fragrance were a touch or a kiss.
“What is that wonderful smell?”
“Me,” he murmured against her mouth. “It’s what happens when a male bonds. I can’t help it. If you let me keep going, it will be all over your skin, your hair. Inside of you, too.”
With that, he thrust deeply. She arched up to the pleasure, letting the heat flow throughout her body.
“I can’t go through tonight again,” she moaned, more to herself than to him.
Falling completely still, he took her hand and placed it on his heart. “Never again, Mary. I swear on my honor.”
His eyes were grave, the vow as good a one as she would get from any living thing. But the relief she felt at his