J.R. Ward the Black Dagger Brotherhood Novels 5-8 - J. R. Ward [169]
God, the dreams she’d had during the night…dreams of that ghostly lover coming and taking her, riding her hard. She could still feel him on her, in her.
Enough, though. The more she thought of all that, the more her chest hurt, so, with a Herculean pull, she diverted her attention to work. Which, of course, then just got her tangled up about Manello. She couldn’t believe he’d kissed her, but he had…he’d laid one right on her mouth. And as she’d always wondered in the back of her mind what he’d be like, she hadn’t pulled away. So he’d kissed her again.
He was good, which wasn’t a surprise. What was a news flash was the fact that it had felt wrong. Like she was being unfaithful to someone.
The damn alarm went off again, and she cursed as she shut it up with her hand. Goddamn, she was tired, even though she thought she’d gone to bed early. At least, she assumed it had been early, though she wasn’t exactly sure when Manny had left. She recalled him helping her up here and settling her into bed, but her head was so scrambled she couldn’t remember what time it had been or how long it had taken her to fall asleep.
Whatever.
Throwing off the covers, she headed for the bathroom and started the shower. As steam boiled up and clouded the air, she shut the bathroom door, pulled her T-shirt off, and—
Jane frowned as a feeling of wetness welled between her legs. Doing a quick count of the days, she figured her period must be wonky—
It wasn’t her period. She’d had sex.
Cold shock replaced the heat from the steam. Oh, God…what had she done. What had she done?
Jane wheeled around, even though she had nowhere to go—only to clamp her hand over her mouth.
Written on the mirror, revealed by the steam, were the words, I love you, Jane.
She stumbled backward until she hit the door.
Shit. She’d slept with Manny Manello. And hadn’t remembered a thing.
Phury took a seat in Wrath’s study, this time on the delicate pale blue wing chair by the fireplace. His hair was still wet from the shower, and he had a cup of coffee in his hand.
He needed a blunt.
As the rest of the Brotherhood filed in, he looked at Wrath. “Mind if I light up?”
The king shook his head. “I’d consider it a public service. We could all use the contact high today.”
God, wasn’t that the truth. Everyone was off. Zsadist was twitchy over by the bookcases. Butch was distracted by the computer on his lap. Wrath looked exhausted behind a mountain of paperwork. Rhage was pacing around, unable to settle—a sure sign that he hadn’t found a fight during the night hours.
And Vishous…V was the worst of them. He stood by the door, staring into space. Icy before, he was glacial now, a sinkhole in the room. Shit, he was even more grim than he’d been the night before.
As Phury lit up, he thought about Jane and V and idly wondered what the sex they’d had had been like. He imagined that, while they had had plenty of pummel sessions, there had been lovely moments of communion, too.
Yeah, nothing like the stuff he’d had in that bathroom. With that prostitute.
He pushed his free hand through his hair. Were you still a virgin if you’d been in a female, but hadn’t finished? He wasn’t sure. Either way, he wasn’t going to ask anyone. It was all just too skeevy.
Man, he’d hoped being with someone would help him move on, but it hadn’t. He felt even more trapped, especially as the first thing he’d done when he’d walked through the mansion’s door was think of Bella: He’d prayed she didn’t catch him coming back smelling of that human woman.
Distance was going to require something else, evidently.
Unless…damn, maybe it just required itself. He probably should move out of the house.
“Let’s do this,” Wrath said, convening the meeting. In quick succession he reviewed some issues concerning the glymera; then Rhage, Butch, and Z reported on events in the field. Which wasn’t much. The slayers had