J.R. Ward the Black Dagger Brotherhood Novels 5-8 - J. R. Ward [375]
Just as he headed for the side exit, he saw Xhex standing by the VIP bar. Her eyes dropped to his arm, which was buried in his coat, and then she frowned and mouthed, Fuck.
As she came striding toward him, he had the bizarre impression she was going to try to snatch back his stash, and that was a no-go. He’d paid in good cash and bought what he had at a fair price. There was no reason for management to have beef with him.
He quickly ducked out the door and dematerialized. He had no fucking clue what the problem was, and he didn’t care. He had what he needed and was going home.
As he traveled in a scramble of molecules back to the mansion, he thought about that druggie in the alley, the one who’d sliced up his dealer and then picked through the man’s pockets while blood went everywhere.
Phury tried to believe that wasn’t him. Tried not to see the desperation of the last twenty minutes as the stepping-stone to what that druggie had done with that switchblade.
The reality was, though, that nothing and no one was safe if they were between an addict and what he craved.
As John looked around Blay’s backyard, he felt like he’d done this a thousand times. This waiting, this watching . . . this predatory pause, it all seemed second nature to him. Which was nuts.
Nah, something told him. This is really just business as usual. You’re only figuring that out now, though.
Next to him in the shadows, Qhuinn was surprisingly still. Usually the guy was always moving, tapping his feet and hands, walking around, chattering. Not tonight, not in this stand of honeysuckle bushes.
Yeah, okay, they were hiding in honeysuckle. Not exactly as manly as standing behind a bunch of oaks, but the coverage was better, and besides, that was all they had for camou flage next to Blay’s back door.
John checked his watch. They’d been waiting here for a good hour or two. Eventually they were going to have to get back to avoid the dawn, and didn’t that suck. He was here to fight. He was prepared to fight.
If he didn’t get a crack at another lesser, his inner ass-kicker was going to have a serious case of the blue balls.
Unfortunately all they had was an occasional late summer breeze to balance out the drone of crickets.
I didn’t know about Blay, John signed for no particular reason. How long have you known about . . .you know, how he felt?
Now Qhuinn’s fingers drummed on his thigh. “Pretty much since it started . . . which was a long time ago.”
Wow, John thought. With all these secrets coming out, it was almost like they were going through their transitions again.
And like the changes that had taken over their bodies, the three of them would never be as they once were.
“Blay hid what he felt,” Qhuinn murmured. “Although not because of the sex stuff. I mean, I don’t have a problem being with guys, especially if there’s chicks involved.” Qhuinn laughed. “You look so shocked. You didn’t know I went like that?”
Well . . . I . . . I mean . . .
Holy shit, if he’d ever felt like a virgin before, in the face of all of Qhuinn’s . . . whatever it was . . . he realized now he was more like a VIRGIN.
“Look, if I make you uncomfortable—”
No, it’s not that. Hell, I’m really not that surprised. I mean, you’ve gone into bathrooms with a lot of different . . .
“Yeah. I kind of just let what happens happen, you know. S’all good.” Qhuinn rubbed his forehead. “I don’t plan on being like this forever, though.”
No?
“Someday I want a shellan of my own. In the meantime, though, I’m going to do anything and everything. That’s how I know I’m living.”
John thought about it. I want a female, too. But it’s hard because . . .
Qhuinn didn’t look at him, but the guy nodded in understanding—which was good. Funny, it was easier to talk about stuff, in a way, now that his friend knew exactly why certain shit would be difficult for him.
“You know, I see the way you look at Xhex.