J.R. Ward the Black Dagger Brotherhood Novels 5-8 - J. R. Ward [547]
“Actually…I should just head off.” She put a hand in her pocket. “I only came to give you the penicillin.”
“I was hoping you’d stay for dinner.”
“I’m sorry.” She held out a plastic bag to him. “I can’t.”
Flashes of the princess tripped through Rehv’s brain, and he reminded himself of how good it felt to do right by Ehlena—and erase her number from his phone. He had no business courting her. None at all.
“I understand.” He took the pills from her. “And thank you for these.”
“Take two four times a day. Ten days. Promise me?”
He nodded once. “Promise.”
“Good. And try to go see Havers, will you?”
There was an awkward moment, and then she lifted her hand. “Okay…so, bye.”
Ehlena turned away, and he opened the glass panel with his mind, not trusting himself to get too close to her.
Oh, please don’t go. Please don’t, he thought.
He just wanted to feel…clean for a little while.
Just as she walked out, she stopped and his heart pounded.
Ehlena glanced back, the wind ruffling the pale wisps around her lovely face. “With food. You need to take them with food.”
Right. Medical information. “I’ve got plenty of that here.”
“Good.”
After he shut the door, Rehv watched her disappear into the shadows and had to make himself turn away.
Walking slowly and using his cane, he went down the wall of glass and around the corner into the glow of the dining room.
Two candles lit. Two place settings of silver. Two glasses for wine. Two glasses for water. Two napkins folded precisely and laid on top of two plates.
He sat down on the chair he’d been going to give to her, the one to his right, the position of honor. He rested his cane against his thigh and put the plastic bag down on the ebony table, smoothing it out so that the antibiotics were resting one next to another in a neat and orderly row.
He wondered why they hadn’t come in a little orange bottle with a white label on it, but whatever. She had brought them to him here. That was the main thing.
Sitting in the silence, surrounded by candlelight and the scent of the roast beef he’d just taken out of the oven, Rehv stroked the plastic bag with his numb forefinger. Sure as shit he was feeling something, though. In the dead center of his chest, he had an ache behind his heart.
He’d done a lot of evil deeds over the course of his life. Big ones and small.
He’d set people up just to mess with them, whether they were rogue dealers infringing on his turf, or johns who didn’t treat his whores right, or idiots who screwed around at his club.
He’d leveraged the vices of others to his benefit. Sold drugs. Sold sex. Sold death in the form of Xhex’s special skills.
He’d fucked for all the wrong reasons.
He’d maimed.
He’d murdered.
And yet, none of that had bothered him at the time. There had been no second thoughts, no regrets, no empathy. Just more schemes, more plans, more angles to be discovered and exploited.
Here at this empty table, though, in this empty penthouse, he felt the ache in his chest and knew it for what it was: Regret.
It would have been extraordinary to deserve Ehlena.
But that was just one more thing he wasn’t ever going to feel.
TWENTY-SEVEN
As the Brotherhood met in his study, Wrath kept an eye on John from his vantage point behind the frilly desk. Across the way, the kid looked like roadkill. His face was pale and his big body was still and he hadn’t participated in the discussion at all. The scent of his emotions was the worst part of it, though: There was none. Not the stinging, nostril-bracing bite of anger. Not the acrid, smoky blow of sadness. Not even the lemony pitch of fear.
Nothing. As he stood among the Brothers and his two best friends, he was insulated by his nonresponsiveness and his numbed-out trance…with them, but not really.
Not good.
Wrath’s headache, which like his eyes and his ears and his mouth seemed to be permanently attached to his skull, made a renewed assault into his temples, and he sat back in his pansy-ass chair in the hope that a spinal realignment might