Killer of Men - Christian Cameron [124]
I told it just like that. ‘When I awoke, I was a slave,’ I finished.
Eualcidas shook his head, and his teeth gleamed in the dark. ‘You need to go to Delphi,’ he said. ‘You are god-touched, and you have been betrayed. No man of Euboea sold you as a slave. We ran. I ran,’ he said, and he smiled that boy’s smile. ‘If you live long enough, you’ll run, too. The day comes, and the moment, and life is sweet.’
I found that I was holding his hand. He had hard calluses on his palm.
I felt better. ‘I don’t think there’s shame in running when everyone runs,’ I said. I’m not sure that’s really what I thought, but he was a great man, and suddenly he was looking for my comfort.
He smiled, and it wasn’t his boy’s smile. It was a very old smile indeed. ‘Wait until you run,’ he said. He shrugged. ‘You’re a good young man. I like you, but I have a feeling you won’t come and share my blanket.’
I shook my head. ‘Sorry, lord,’ I said. I was, to be honest, tempted. He was kind. He was a killer of men, but something in him was basically good. And just sitting with him taught me – I don’t know what, but maybe that what I was becoming could be greater than the sum of the corpses I left.
In many ways, Aristides and Miltiades were better men. They built to last, and they did things for their city that will live for ever. Aristides was a noble man in every way, and his mind went deep. And Miltiades was the best soldier I’ve ever known, except maybe his son.
But Eualcidas was a hero, a man from the age of gold. Almost like a god.
He kissed me. ‘Let’s be heroes tomorrow,’ he said. And went off among the rocks, back to his own men.
They tried us in the dawn, but we were cold, surly and awake, and the shower of thrown spears bounced off our shields and we chased them down the pass without trouble. My part of the line wasn’t even engaged.
The slaves brought us some dried meat and some cheese, and I ate what I could get down and drank my share of water. My canteen was still full, and I kept it and my leather bag on under my shield, while most of the Athenians sent all their gear away with their slaves.
Late in the morning, I saw men on horseback round the bend and come forward, and I saw that it was Artaphernes, his right arm in a sling. We were standing in our ranks, and he rode quite close, but had the sense to stay a spear’s cast away from us. Then he shook his head, made a quip to one of his aides and rode away.
It was perhaps an hour before they made their effort. We were bored, and nervous, and Aristides and Eualcidas kept walking along our front and talking – which made the boys nervous. You – the writer with the wax tablet – if you ever lead men to war, let me tell you something not to do. Don’t have long conferences with your subordinates. Got that?
What an old bastard I am. My pardon, sir – you are a guest in my house. Have some more wine. And send some to me – talking of battle is thirsty work.
Do you know that most of what men say about war is a tissue of lies? All the girls know it – women get a distrust of male bragging in their mother’s milk, eh? Hah, you aren’t blushing now, my pretty. No – what I say is true. When the spears go down and the shields smack together, who in Tartarus remembers what happens? It all goes by in a blur of panic and desperation, and you are always one sword thrust from the dark, until you stand there breathing like the accordion bellows in my father’s shop and someone tells you it is over.
What soldiers remember is the time before, and sometimes the time after. At the fight in the pass, I remember Cleon – my second-ranker – had to piss four times, even though he hadn’t had enough water for two days. And Herk’s best spear’s head was loose, and he kept making it rattle in irritation – not that we could hear it, but the vibration annoyed him, and he kept