Kiss of Midnight_ A Midnight Breed Novel - Lara Adrian [193]
Never assuming, always rigidly proper, she wouldn’t enter Chase’s domain until he invited her in. He rose from his desk chair and held his hand out to her in welcome. “Please,” he said, unable to take his eyes off her as she glided over the threshold and stood against the far wall.
“They say he took some kind of drug while they were at a nightclub, and he became crazed,” she said softly. “He tried to attack someone. His friends got frightened and ran off. They lost him in the panic, and they don’t know what happened to him. The whole day has passed without any word from him at all.”
Chase didn’t reply. Elise wouldn’t want to know the truth of it, and he would be the last person to subject her to the ugly details of his own firsthand knowledge of the young vampire’s agonizing final moments of life.
“Jonas is one of Camden’s best friends, you know.”
“Yes,” Chase said quietly. “I know.”
Elise’s smooth brow pinched, then she glanced away from him, fidgeting with her wedding band. “Do you think it’s possible that they might have found each other out there? Maybe Cam and Jonas are hiding together somewhere. They must be so scared, needing to find shelter from the sun. At least it will be dark again soon, just a few more hours. Maybe tonight there will be good news.”
Chase didn’t realize he was moving until he saw that he was on the other side of his desk, only a few paces away from the spot where Elise stood. “I will find Camden. I promised you I would. You have my vow, Elise: I won’t rest until he is safe at home with you again.”
Her head bobbed weakly. “I know you’re doing all that you can. But you are sacrificing so much to search for Cam. I know how much you enjoyed your work with the Agency. Now you’re getting involved with those dangerous thugs of the Order….”
“You don’t worry about any of that,” he told her gently. “My decisions are my own to make. I know what I’m doing—and why.”
When she looked up at him now, she smiled, a rare gift that he devoured greedily and held close. “Sterling, I understand that you and my husband had your differences. Quentin could be…inflexible at times. I know that he pushed you a great deal at the Agency. But he respected you more than he did anyone else. He always said you were the best, the one with the most potential to be something great. He cared for you, even if he often had trouble expressing that to you.” She drew in a breath, then exhaled it on a rushing sigh. “He would be so grateful for what you are doing for us, Sterling. As I am.”
Looking into her warm lavender eyes, Chase pictured himself bringing Elise’s son home like a prize he’d won just for her pleasure. There would be joyful tears and emotional embraces. He could almost feel her arms thrown around him in cathartic relief, her moist eyes anointing him as her personal champion. Her savior.
He lived for that chance now.
He craved it with a ferocity that startled him.
“I just want you to be happy,” he said, daring to move closer to her.
In a shameful instant, he imagined an alternate reality, where Elise belonged to him, her widow’s garb flung away along with her memory of the strong, honorable mate she had loved so deeply and lost. In Chase’s private dream, Elise’s small body would be grown full and ripe with his child. He would give her a son to love and hold close. He would give her the world.
“You deserve to be happy, Elise.”
She made a small noise in the back of her throat, as though he had embarrassed her. “It’s very sweet of you to care. I don’t know what I would do without you, especially now.”
She stepped toward him and put her hands on his shoulders, just the lightest touch, but enough to send a flood of heat racing through him. He braced himself, hardly breathing as she rose up on her toes and pressed her lips to the corner of his mouth. The kiss was brief, heartbreakingly chaste.
“Thank you, Sterling. I couldn’t have asked