Kiss of Midnight_ A Midnight Breed Novel - Lara Adrian [630]
“What’s going on here, Renata?” He stared at her, his gaze too penetrating, as if he could see right through her. “Is this really about Mira? Or are you upset because of what’s been happening between us?”
Us. The word stuck in her brain like a foreign object. It felt so unfamiliar, so dangerous. Far too intimate. There had never been an “us” for Renata. She’d always depended only herself, asking nothing of anyone. It was safer that way. Safer now too.
She’d broken her own rule when she went after Nikolai to enlist his help in finding Mira. Look what it had gotten her: a festering gunshot wound, crucial time lost, and not a single step closer to locating Mira. In fact, now that word was certainly out about her abetting Nikolai in his escape from Fabien’s custody, she stood little hope of getting close to the vampire on her own. If Mira was in danger before, Renata might have just made things worse for the little girl.
“I have to get out of here,” she said woodenly “I’ve lost too much time already. I couldn’t bear it if anything happens to that child because of me.”
Worry and frustration made her push off from the bed. She stood up—too quickly.
Before she could take two steps away from Nikolai, her knees turned to jelly. Her vision went dark for a second and suddenly she was sinking, pitching forward. She felt strong arms cushion her, Nikolai’s voice quiet beside her ear as he scooped her up and lifted her onto the bed.
“Stop fighting, Renata,” he said as she came out of her faint and blinked up at him. Poised over her, he smoothed the backs of his fingers along the side of her face. So tender, so calming. “You don’t need to run. You don’t need to fight… not with me. You’re safe with me, Renata.”
She wanted to close her eyes and shut out his gentle words. She was so afraid to believe him, to trust. And she felt so guilty accepting his comfort knowing that a child could be suffering, probably crying for her in the dark and wondering why Renata had broken her promise.
“Mira’s all that matters to me,” she whispered. “I need to know that she’s safe, and that she always will be.”
Nikolai gave a solemn nod. “I know how much she means to you. And I know how hard it is for you to ask for help from someone. Jesus Christ, Renata… you willingly risked your life to break me out of that containment facility. I’ll never be able to repay you for what you did.”
She turned her head on the pillow, unable to hold his piercing gaze. “Don’t worry, you’re under no obligation to me. You don’t owe me a thing, Nikolai.”
Warm fingers glided along her jaw. He cupped her chin in his palm and gently guided her face back to him. “I owe you my life. Where I come from, that’s no small thing.”
Renata’s breath stilled as he looked into her eyes. She hated herself for the hope that was kindling in her heart— hope that she truly wasn’t alone right now. Hope that this warrior would assure her that everything was going to work out, and that no matter what kind of monster had Mira, they would find her, and she was going to be all right.
“I’m not going to let anything happen to Mira,” he said, forcing her to hold his intense gaze. “You have my word on that. I’m not going to let anything happen to you either, which is why I’m going to get you medical care for your shoulder as soon as the sun sets tonight.”
“What?” She tried to raise up and winced from the sharp stab of pain. “I’ll be fine. I don’t need a doctor—”
“You’re not fine, Renata. You’re getting worse by the hour.” His expression was grave as he looked from the searing wound in her shoulder back to her eyes. “You can’t continue like this.”
“I’ll survive,” she insisted. “I’m not about to quit now, when Mira’s life is on the line.”
“Your life is on the line too. Do you understand?” He shook his head and muttered