Leviathan Wakes - James S. A. Corey [196]
Holden flipped the shipwide comm off. He scratched his head for a minute, then unbuckled his restraints.
“Well, we stopped them for now. I’m going to hit the head and then grab a drink. Want anything?”
“He’s not wrong, you know,” Naomi said later that night.
Holden was floating in zero g on the ops deck, his station a few feet away. He’d turned down the deck lights, and the cabin was as dim as a moonlit night. Alex and Amos were sleeping two decks below. They might as well have been a million light-years away. Naomi was floating near her own station, two meters away, her hair unbound and drifting around her like a black cloud. The panel behind her lit her face in profile: the long forehead, flat nose, large lips. He could tell that her eyes were closed. He felt like they were the only two people in the universe.
“Who’s not wrong?” he said, just to be saying something.
“Miller,” she replied as though it were obvious.
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
Naomi laughed, then swatted with one hand to rotate her body and face him in the air. Her eyes were open now, though with the panel lights behind her, they were visible only as black pools in her face.
“I’ve been thinking about Miller,” she said. “I treated him badly on Tycho. Ignored him because you were angry. I owed him better than that.”
“Why?”
“He saved your life on Eros.”
Holden snorted, but she kept going anyway.
“When you were in the navy,” she finally said, “what were you supposed to do when someone went crazy on the ship? Started doing things that endangered everyone?”
Thinking they were talking about Miller, Holden said, “You restrain him and remove him as a danger to the ship and crew. But Fred didn’t—”
Naomi cut him off.
“What if it’s wartime?” she said. “The middle of a battle?”
“If he can’t be easily restrained, the chief of the watch has an obligation to protect the ship and crew by whatever means necessary.”
“Even shooting him?”
“If that’s the only way to do it,” Holden replied. “Sure. But it would only be in the most pressing circumstances.”
Naomi nodded with her hand, sending her body slowly twisting the other way. She stopped her motion with one unconscious gesture. Holden was pretty good in zero g, but he’d never be that good.
“The Belt is a network,” Naomi said. “It’s like one big distributed ship. We have nodes that make air, or water, or power, or structural materials. Those nodes may be separated by millions of kilometers of space, but that doesn’t make them any less interconnected.”
“I see where this is going,” Holden said with a sigh. “Dresden was a madman on the ship, Miller shot him to protect the rest of us. He gave me that speech back on Tycho. Didn’t buy it then either.”
“Why?”
“Because,” Holden said. “Dresden wasn’t an immediate threat. He was just an evil little man in an expensive suit. He didn’t have a gun in his hand, or his finger on a bomb trigger. And I will never trust a man who believes he has the right to unilaterally execute people.”
Holden put his foot against the bulkhead and tapped off just hard enough to float a few feet closer to Naomi, close enough to see her eyes, read her reaction to him.
“If that science ship starts flying toward Eros again, I will throw every torpedo we have at it, and tell myself I was protecting the rest of the solar system from what’s on Eros. But I won’t just start shooting at it now, on the idea that it might decide to head to Eros again, because that’s murder. What Miller did was murder.”
Naomi smiled at him, then grabbed his flight suit and pulled him close enough for a kiss.
“You might be the best person I know. But you’re totally uncompromising on what you think is right, and that’s what you hate about Miller.”
“I do?”
“Yes,” she said. “He’s totally uncompromising too, but he has different ideas on how things work. You hate that. To Miller, Dresden was an active threat to the ship. Every second he stayed alive endangered everyone else around him. To