Lives Like Loaded Guns_ Emily Dickinson and Her Family's Feuds - Lyndall Gordon [228]
145 ‘Your “Rascal”’: (c. 1877). L515.
145 ‘Are you—Nobody—too?’: (c. late 1861). J288/Fr260.
145 ‘We will preserve . . .’: L230.
146 ‘My heart . . .’ etc: (c. summer 1860). L220.
146 ‘Because I could not say it . . .’: ‘Through the strait pass of suffering’. L251/Fr187.
146 ‘mad’: To Mrs Holland (c. 20 Jan 1856). L182.
146 ‘few pleasures so deep . . .’: L265.
146 ‘wayward’; ‘I had no Monarch . . .’: L271.
147 ‘I went to school . . .’: L261.
147 ‘punish’: Houghton: *65M -121.
147 ‘Sweetest of Renowns . . .’: (c. spring 1876). L458.
148 ‘plaintive’: TWH’s word. Editor’s note to L274.
148 ‘Did I displease . . .’: L274.
148 ‘Will you instruct . . .’: (c. 1873). L396.
148 ‘Dare you. . .’: Ch. 3, op. cit.
148 Higginson to ED: DFP. Houghton: bMS Am 1118.95. Signature cut out in the ms has been restored. L330a (minus date).
149 ‘partially cracked . . .’: Editor’s note to L481.
149 ED to Chickering: (early 1883). L798.
149 ‘unsuitable’; ‘too ethereal’: ED’s schoolmate Emily Fowler Ford’s account of a conversation with Dr Holland in ED, Letters (1931), 131. (Emily Ford was herself the author of two volumes of verse. She disparaged ED, calling her poems ‘air-plants’ with ‘no roots in the earth’. She judged that ‘these lyrical ejaculations, these breathed out projectiles, sharp as lances’ would, if published, fall on idle ears.) 1
50 Dr Holland’s belittling attitudes to women: I owe these details to Habegger, 383, who discovered Holland’s revealing unsigned essay, ‘Women in Literature’ (1858).
150 ‘out of gear’: (c. 20 Jan 1856). L182.
150 ‘I was sick, little sister . . .’: L385.
150 SHD and ‘sick Days’: L383, 384.
150 no golden fleece, and Jason a sham: ‘Finding is the first Act’ (c. early 1865). J870/Fr910.
150 ‘because they talk . . .’: L271.
150 ‘drained’: TWH to his wife. L342b.
151 ‘abnormal’: TWH recalled the interview twenty years later, Atlantic Monthly, lxviii (Oct 1891), 453.
151 ‘Infinity’: From ‘Show me Eternity’ (c. 1884). L830/Fr1658.
151 ‘Only Woman . . .’: (c. 1875). L447.
151 twice the number: she sent SHD 276 poems.
152 ‘Safe . . .’: For history of the drafts, see Elizabeth A. Petrino, ch. entitled ‘Alabaster Chambers’. ED wrote two more endings for the poem.
152 SHD’s note on ‘Safe’ to ED: DFP. Houghton: bMS Am 1118.95. In note to L238.
152 ‘I shall not murmur’: J1410/Fr1429.
153 SHD’s rarity: Recalling ‘Rare to the Rare’ in ch. 3, op. cit. L336, a poem-letter.
153 ‘To see you . . .’: L346.
153 ‘Egypt . . .’: L430. Antony and Cleopatra, III: xi, 56-61.
153 Helen Fiske in Amherst: see ch. 1.
153 Helen Hunt: Kate Phillips, 141-7, 308-9.
155 ‘The Birds begun at Four o’clock’: (c. 1863). J783/Fr504.
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156 ‘Dear Family’: DFP. Houghton: bMS Am 1118.95.
156 Edward Dickinson’s funeral: Springfield Daily Republican and funeral sermon. Copies in DFP. Houghton: bMS Am 1118.95.
157 text from Samuel: 1 Sam 20:1.
157 ‘melted to tears’: funeral sermon, quoting letter to the Revd Mr Colton who had brought on the conversion of the group of seventy in 1850, including SHD.
157 ‘I would like it to not end’: L418.
157 ‘I say unto you’: L432.
157 ‘a House of Snow’: Ibid.
157 Mr Dickinson and the birds: L644.
157 ‘Palace’: ‘From his slim Palace in the Dust’. J1300/Fr1339.
157 ‘Marl House’: (c. Jan 1875). L432.
157 ‘He giveth . . .’: Psalms 147, v.9. Allusion in L668.
158 ‘spectacular . . .’: L696.
158 ‘George Who - ?’: ‘That sums all Politics to me’ (late autumn 1884). L950.
158 LD more hurried: L667.
158 Tenderness: ‘the only God I know’. L689.
158 hands-on care: ED’s list of what she did does not include the hands-on nursing. L668.
158 the sisters’ bond: (c. 1873). L391.
158 royal purple: MTB’s ‘Biographical Notes’ in Home, 486-7.
158 court martial: ED, Letters, ed. MLT (1931), 175.
158 ‘Eagles’: MTB’s ‘Biographical Notes’ in Home, 486-7.
158 ‘Aunt