Lives Like Loaded Guns_ Emily Dickinson and Her Family's Feuds - Lyndall Gordon [230]
166 ‘impregnable chances . . .’: L750. See also L749, where it has a differently ambiguous connotation in a letter to the Boston editor, Niles, where the question of publication has come up.
167 ‘Papa . . .’: L750.
167 ‘Emily Jumbo’: (c. Nov 1882). L780.
167 Jumbo in the circus: Benfey, A Summer of Hummingbirds, 217.
167 ‘I will try . . .’; ‘dear Home’; ‘So delicate . . .’; ‘tender Priest . . .’; ‘a treasure . . .’; ‘While others . . .’: (3 Dec 1882). L790.
168 ‘the cause’: L691.
168 ‘would be right’: It’s the moral language of Strether, the New England hero of Henry James, as he backs away from commitment to a congenial partner, Maria Gostrey. The situation is not entirely clear: why is it not ‘right’? The closing scene of The Ambassadors.
168 ‘Fire rocks’: J1677/Fr1743, op. cit.
168 bridegroom: See ch. 4, above.
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169 Middlemarch’s ‘glory’: (c. Apr 1873). L389.
169 ‘the Lane to the Indes . . .’: To SHD (c. Mar 1876). L456.
169 ‘like a vulture’: L962. Cross’s Life was published in 1885.
169 stories of the Wilder and Loomis ancestry: MLT, unfinished TS autobiography. Yale: box 116, f.452.
171 Thoreau invited Loomis to the Maine Woods: Letters from Thoreau to Loomis were discovered belatedly. Yale: box 46, f.9.
171 ‘Richard Coeur de Lion’: MLT, unfinished TS autobiography. Yale: box 116, f. 452. I’m guessing here that MLT had this from her mother.
172 story based on her younger self: ‘Friendly Enemies’: (1889). Yale: box 77, f.310. She wrote this story when she returned to the Boston Conservatory for further training in 1889-90.
173 DPT’s bent for gadgetry: Benfey, A Summer of Hummingbirds, 181.
174 ‘a strong intuition’ etc: Journals, cited A&M, 51.
175 ‘climax . . .’: Journals. Yale: microfilm, reel 8.
176 ‘give up everything . . .’: Henry James, The Golden Bowl (1904), ch. 27.
176 Todds’ private life at Amherst House: MLT, Journals, III (1881). Yale: microfilm.
176 ‘At first I used to suffer . . .’: Journal (Feb 1890). Yale: microfilm. Cited A&M, 50.
176 ‘absolutely blind . . .’: Cited A&M, 51.
177 WAD ‘could be forever trusted’: MLT, Journals (15 Sept 1882). Yale: microfilm, reel 8.
177 ‘I have simply felt . . .’; ‘innocent’; ‘caged eagle’: A&M, 58.
178 Millicent’s first encounters with Amherst and ‘Gildud’: MLT’s fragmentary biography of MTB which is really more an autobiography. TS. Yale.
178 ‘I have not the quality of motherhood . . .’: ‘Millicent’s Life’.
179 MLT’s exchange with Ned: MLT, Journals, III (2 Mar 1882), 161. Yale: microfilm.
181 ‘Cynic . . .’: L689.
181 ‘thrown open . . .’: A&M, 135.
181 ‘Why should I . . .’: WAD to MLT (c. Nov 1882). A&M, 134
181 ‘the most delicate courtesy’: MLT, Journals, V (16 Dec 1885). Yale: microfilm, reel 8.
182 LD’s imitations: ‘Annals of The Evergreens’.
183 Gib born: (1 August 1875).
183 ‘Our’ child: L1018.
183 ‘panting with secrets’: L868.
183 ‘Weren’t you chasing Pussy?’: L664.
183 ‘Tudor . . .’: To SHD. L938.
184 ‘Oh I love you . . .’; ‘It was no fault . . .’ etc: A&M, 138.
184 ‘The evening . . .’ etc: A&M, 149 (8 Jan 1883).
184 ‘cruel’ etc: A&M, 149 (8 Jan 1883).
185 ‘feeling of wrath’: A&M, 152 (28 Jan 1883).
185 ‘I trust you . . .’: A&M, 156.
185 ‘famished . . .’: A&M, 154.
186 winter use of the dining room at the Homestead: I’m grateful to Jane Wald, curator of the Emily Dickinson Museum, for this information.
187 tryst: On that occasion, DPT was there.
187 ‘she had come to stay’: A&M, 143 (15 Dec 1882).
187 ‘I have come to stay’: A&M, 151.
187 ‘As I told you . . . come to stay’: Third repetition not included in A&M. MLT letters to WAD. Yale.
187 ‘I came to stay’: A&M, 160 (25 Apr 1883).
187 gift of arbutus; ‘I am sorry . . .’; ‘This week . . .’: A&M, 160-1.
188 WAD on meeting MLT in Boston: WAD to MLT (12 July 1883). A&M, 165. Sewall, i, 179.
189 ‘I suffer . . .’: A&M, 166.
189 LD’s letter: A&M, 160-1.
189 ‘shine & affection’; ‘I shall sing . . .’: LD to MLT (n.d. and ‘12 July’). Yale.