Lucking Out - James Wolcott [55]
Although the seventies had a lot more going on at groin level than the decade that followed (when whoring for fame earned its racing stripes), it would be an error of my own emphasis to leave the impression that Pauline’s loyal band was primarily libido-driven, a nest of Les Liaisons Dangereuses swingers trading “biting repartee” without benefit of painted fans and snuffboxes, as Pauline occupied the center of the silken web, eating the flies we brought her. The erotics at play were less those of the flesh than those of yearning, striving egos—an erotics directed toward recognition. The motoring force at work as we sat there in the glorified drawing room of the Algonquin was the drive for approval and attention, Pauline’s approval and attention most of all (the larger world’s acceptance an amplification and ratification of hers), which was won and held not by being smarty or fawning or doctrinaire but by being receptive to whatever might be coming around the corner, willing to play the tricky carom. She couldn’t stand “stiffs,” whose tastes were fully formed, rigidified, and stuck in the petrified forest of the past, and those of us sitting in the Algonquin were on the upswing of our careers, just starting our scouting missions. These were the years of encouragement. Some would stray off target, disappear into the reeds, defect from criticism under the pressure of unfulfilled expectations and career frustrations, or simply find something more frolicking to do, Pauline being more ambitious for them than they were for themselves. In a sense we all would fail Pauline because none of us would surpass her defiant nerve, her resounding impact. But tonight, we’re modestly in character, the future only extends so far, and Pauline is sipping tea from a cup, having brought her own tea bag. H. is there, looking Southern courtly as his words seem to roll down his tapered wrists, like beaded droplets. R. is there, leaning forward, avid, his date poised on her chair as if it were a lily pad, choosing each peanut from the peanut bowl with premeditated care. Madison presides from her corner of the sofa, giving a Tallulah Bankhead performance. As for me, there I am, just a few years after leaving college, sitting at the Algonquin with the greatest film critic then or now, part of the gang, wearing jeans that probably need washing and nursing a Coke, the only thing I ever ordered. And Pauline—she listens, she laughs, she passes along nuggets (“I asked Peckinpah why he made —— look like such a dumb cow in ——, and he said, ‘Because that’s what she is’ ”), but she doesn’t hold forth, she doesn’t make pronouncements, she doesn’t pontificate, and she doesn’t traffic in absolutes, like Ayn Rand holding an indoctrination séance. “Let’s order a last round, like civilized people,” she says, and rings the bell.
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