Lunar Park - Bret Easton Ellis [114]
But the Terby was not in Sarah’s bedroom. This was a discovery I made after a cursory inspection of the room.
The writer told me it was hiding. The writer told me I needed to entice it from the hiding place.
I asked the writer how does something that’s not alive hide itself?
I asked the writer how do you entice something that’s not alive out of its hiding place?
This silenced the writer momentarily. The silence eventually worried me.
The writer was reactivated when I moved to Sarah’s window and gazed down at the hedge and the mutilated cat.
The writer suggested we go to Robby’s room.
I hesitated in the hallway outside Robby’s room and stared at the grooves carved in the bottom of the door, then turned the knob and entered.
The room was pristine.
It was in the neatest condition I had ever seen. Nothing was out of place.
The bed was tightly made. There were no clothes strewn across the floor. The video-game cartridges and DVDs and magazines were stacked in even piles. The Martian landscape of the carpet had been recently vacuumed. There were no empty Starbucks cups lining the top of the minifridge. His desk was immaculate. The pillows on the leather sofa had no indentations on them. Every surface was clean. The room smelled of varnish and lemon.
It was a showroom.
Everything was exact.
And it felt empty.
It was supposed to feel peaceful.
But there had been a concentrated effort to also make it feel benign.
No one had ever lived in it.
There was something horribly wrong about this.
This wrongness drew me toward the computer.
The moon was pulsing on its screen.
Again: hesitation. And then: the need for things to speed up.
Nadine Allen’s anguished theory whirled into the barren room.
The word neverland pushed the writer to reach out and tap the mouse.
The desktop appeared on the screen.
I knew no one was upstairs but I looked over my shoulder anyway.
After tapping “My Documents,” I walked over and shut the door.
When I returned to the desk, on the Gateway’s screen was a list of roughly one hundred WordPerfect documents.
I started perspiring.
As I scrolled to the bottom of the screen I saw there were ten documents that had been downloaded from somewhere.
These files had initials for titles.
The writer was immediately able to attach names to them.
MC could have been Maer Cohen.
Was TS Tom Salter?
EB was Eddie Burgess.
JW: Josh Wolitzer.
CM equaled Cleary Miller.
As I tapped the document for MC suddenly a box flashed on the screen, asking me for a password.
Why would a password be needed to open a document?
Because it doesn’t want to be read by you, the writer whispered.
I scanned the room while the writer wondered what Robby’s password might be.
The writer wondered if there was a way we might find out.
The writer wondered if Marta knew.
I looked up from the computer and caught my image in a full-length mirror.
I was wearing khakis, a red Polo sweater over a white T-shirt and Vans, and I was hunched over my son’s computer, sweating heavily. I took off the sweater. I still looked ridiculous.
I turned my attention back to the computer.
I began typing in words that I thought might mean something to Robby.
The names of moons: Titan. Miranda. Io. Atlas. Hyperion.
Each word was denied access.
The writer had expected this and scolded the father for being surprised.
I was not aware as I bent over the computer that the door behind me was slowly opening.
The writer assumed that I had closed the door.
The writer even went so far as to suggest that I had locked it.
I held on to the possibility that I had left it ajar.
As I kept uselessly typing in passwords, the door opened itself fully, and something entered Robby’s room.
And just as the writer decided to type in neverland I realized that Nadine Allen had gotten it wrong.
The word wasn’t neverland.
The word was neverneverland.
Neverneverland was where the missing boys were going.
Not neverland but neverneverland.
The writer told me to type