Mao II - Don Delillo [26]
Scott was washing coffee cups.
Bill came in and said, “What are you doing?”
Scott looked into the basin, running a sponge around the inside of a cup.
“We could walk up to the mill. It’s a nice enough day.”
“You have to work,” Scott said.
“I’ve worked.”
“It’s early yet. Go back and work some more.”
“I’ve put in some good time today.”
“Bullshit. You were having your picture taken.”
“But I caught up. Come on. We’ll get the women and hike to the mill.”
“Go back up.”
“I don’t want to go back up.”
“Don’t start. I’m not in the mood.”
“We’ll get the women,” Bill said.
“It’s early. You ruined your morning with picture-taking. Go back up and do your work.”
Scott held the sponge under warm water, rinsing out the soap.
“We have three hours of light. Ample time to get there and back. ”
“I’m telling you for your own good. It’s your idea to write this book forever. I’m only saying what I’m supposed to say. ”
“You know what you are?”
“Yeah yeah yeah yeah, ”
“Yeah yeah,” Bill said.
“I don’t think you did ten good minutes.”
“Yeah yeah yeah.”
“So go back up and sit down and do your work.”
“We’re wasting all this light.”
“It’s really very simple.”
“It isn’t simple. It’s everything in the world that isn’t simple wrapped up in one small bundle.”
Scott was finished at the sink but stayed there looking into the basin.
“It’s simple all right. It really is. You just go back up and sit down and do your work.”
“The women would enjoy it.”
“I’m only saying what we both know I’m supposed to say.”
“I could go back up and just sit there. How would you know I was working?”
“I wouldn’t, Bill.”
“I could sit there tearing stamps from a twenty-five-dollar roll of stamps with the fucking flag on every stamp.”
“As long as you’re in the room. I want you in the room, seated.”
“I’ll tell you what you are,” Bill said.
Scott reached for a towel and dried his hands but didn’t turn around. He hung the towel on the plastic hook and waited.
Brita stood outside Bill’s workroom, in the open doorway, looking in. After a moment she reached in and knocked softly on the door even though it was clear the room was empty. She stood motionless and waited. Then she took one step in, looking carefully at the ordinary things inside as if compelled to memorize the details of whatever had escaped the camera—the placement of objects and titles of reference works, the number of pencils in the marmalade jar. Gazing for history’s sake, for the obsessive record of what is on the desk and who is in the snapshots, the oddments that seem so precious to our understanding of the man.
But all she wanted was a cigarette. She spotted the pack, crossed the room quickly and took one out. There were footsteps on the stairs. She found matches and lit up and when Bill appeared in the doorway she gestured with the cigarette and told him thanks.
“I thought you were probably gone,” he said.
“Don’t you know the rules? We wait for dark. Then we go on side roads and no roads to avoid route signs that might tell me where we are.”
“Scott spent weeks on this.”
“It takes twice the time, his way.”
“I think you’re supposed to appreciate the maze aspects.”
“I’ll try harder. But right now I’m keeping you from your work so we’ll meet at early dinner if this is the plan.”
Bill moved some papers from a bench near the window and then seemed to forget that he meant to sit there and stood holding the sheaf chest-high.
“I said things, didn’t I?”
“About your work mostly.