Meandering Mind - Eva Dillner [0]
Eva Dillner
Books by Eva Dillner
new editions in print, audio and e-book formats
in English
Z 2 A (planned 2010)
Meandering Mind (2010)
1st edition The Pathfinder Process (2005)
3rd edition (planned 2012)
2nd edition Secrets of Transformation (2008)
1st edition The Naked Truth (2003)
Keys to Life Energy (planned 2011)
1st edition God put a Dream in my Heart (2003)
Healing Art Calendar (2010)
Art of Now Calendar (2009)
in Swedish
Våga Leva (2006)
Livs Levande Eva (2006)
Meandering Mind
by Eva Dillner
DIVINE DESIGN
www.divinedesign.nu
Meandering Mind
2nd edition of The Pathfinder Process
originally published by 1st Books/Author House in 2005
Copyright © 2005, 2010 Eva Dillner
Cover painting copyright © 2009 Eva Dillner
All rights reserved.
No part of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted by any means, eletronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without written pemission from the author.
Eva Dillner asserts the moral right to be identified as the author of this work.
ISBN: 978-91-978231-2-8 (6"x9" Softcover)
ISBN: 978-91-977337-9-3 (digital audio)
ISBN: 978-91-978231-1-1 (e-book)
Printed in the UK and USA by Lightning Source
Digital audio available via Audible and Elib
E-book available via Kindle, Elib and Ingram
Published by DIVINE DESIGN
www.divinedesign.nu
Eksjö, Sweden
If you love something
set it free
if it comes back to you
it is yours
if it doesn’t
it never was
One
Rumination pays off
For months I have been chewing on the structure and approach of this book. At first I thought I would write a book with meditations and instructions on how to live life in the flow. But that wasn't it at all, at least not now.
It felt to me as if two books wanted to come through, one on business and one on relationships. Was I meant to write two books side by side? Quite a challenge, one book is quite enough of a project. I pondered the similarities in the books. In both, the premise would be to discover the potential of a group, individual or relationship rather than try to pound people into pre-determined roles and organization charts.
I experienced tremendous resistance to the idea of writing two books simultaneously. Self worth issues surfaced that took me into a very deep and dark place. I questioned once again if writing was really my path. I painted, hoping to unclog the creative flow. How was this to get off the ground?
I puttered with God knows what. I sorted papers, made phone calls, cleaned house, sat and stared into space, put my photo albums in order, played with my computer, daydreamed, had temper tantrums, you name it. I sure wasn't doing any writing. I felt frustrated. I laid on the couch and cried, feeling worthless and unworthy. I just couldn't get going. I could feel the stream of words just waiting to come out my fingertips into the books. But I couldn't find the end of the thread that would start to untangle the whole ball of yarn. I could see the whole ball, lots of threads here and there, all tangled together into a ball. But no start!
Then one day, while I was doing the dishes, the answer fell into place. I had assumed that in being given two subjects I was to make two books. The problem was that I had tried to separate relationships from work, to structure life into some compartmentalized cubes. I didn't live my life that way. My work and relationships intertwine into a whole flow. The two subjects were meant to be in one book. As this thought crystallized in my head, I saw how writing one book could be done as a diary, with one topic following another. I could explore thoughts, experiences and theories without having to have the answers, without having to make a “how to” book. I could be the philosopher that I really am. I could ponder and observe and weave together my blend of life observations into a new whole. I would also have the opportunity to seed new thoughts, to pose new questions as well as share my wisdom. Best of all I wouldn't have to write from an expert point