Merrick - Anne Rice [143]
Well, I could not mourn for it. It was done, and I must go and find them now, I reasoned. I must go and find them together, and see the manner in which they looked at each other, and I must wring more promises from them, which was nothing more than a means of interposing myself between them, and then I must accept that Louis had become the brilliant star for Merrick, and by that light I shone no more.
Only after a long while did I open the coffin, the lid creaking loudly, and step out of it, and begin my assent, up through the steps of the damp old cellar, towards the dreary rooms above.
At last I came to a stop in a great unused brick-walled room which had once many years ago served as a department store. Nothing remained now of its former glory except a few very dirty display cases and broken shelves, and a thick layer of soil on its old uneven wooden floor.
I stood in the spring heat and in the soft dust, breathing in the scent of the mold and the red bricks around me, and peering towards the unwashed show windows, beyond which the street, now much neglected, gave forth its few persistent and sorrowful lights.
Why was I standing here?
Why had I not gone directly out to meet Louis and Merrick? Why had I not gone to feed, if it was blood I wanted, and indeed, I did thirst, I knew that much. Why did I stand alone in the shadows, waiting, as if for my grief to be redoubled, as if for my loneliness to be sharpened, so that I would hunt with the fine-tuned senses of a beast?
Then, gradually, the awareness stole over me, separating me totally from the melancholy surroundings, so I tingled in every portion of my being as my eyes saw what my mind wanted desperately to deny.
Merrick stood before me in the very red silk of last night’s brief meeting, and all her physiognomy was changed by the Dark Gift.
Her creamy skin was almost luminous with vampiric powers; her green eyes had taken on the iridescence so common to Lestat, Armand, Marius, yes, yes, and yes again, yes, all of the rest. Her long brown hair had its unholy luster, and her beautiful lips their inevitable, eternal, and perfect unnatural sheen.
“David,” she cried out, even her distinctive voice colored by the blood inside her, and she flew into my arms.
“Oh, dear God in Heaven, how could I have let it happen!” I was unable to touch her, my hands hovering above her shoulders, and suddenly I gave in to the embrace with all my heart. “God forgive me. God forgive me!” I cried out even as I held her tight enough to harm her, held her close to me as if no one could ever pry her loose. I didn’t care if mortals heard me. I didn’t care if all the world knew.
“No, David, wait,” she begged as I went to speak again. “You don’t understand what’s happened. He’s done it, David, he’s gone into the sun. He did it at dawn, after he’d taken me and hidden me away, and showed me everything he could, and promised me that he would meet me tonight. He’s done it, David. He’s gone, and there’s nothing left of him now that isn’t burnt black.”
The terrible tears flooding down her cheeks were glittering with unwholesome blood.
“David, can’t you do anything to rescue him? Can’t you do anything to bring him back? It’s all my fault that it happened. David, I knew what I was doing, I led him into it, I worked him so skillfully. I did use his blood and I used the silk of my dress. I used every power natural and unnatural. I’ll confess to more when there’s time for it. I’ll pour it all out to you. It’s my fault that he’s gone, I swear it, but can’t you bring him back?”
23
HE HAD DONE a most careful thing.
He had brought his coffin, a relic of venerable age and luster, to the rear courtyard of the town house in the Rue Royale, a most secluded and high-walled place.
He had left his last letter on the desk upstairs, a desk which all of us—I, Lestat, and Louis—had at one time used for important writings