Morgan's Passing - Anne Tyler [40]
Now that she thought back, Emily felt she really should have prepared Mrs. Meredith. It was too theatrical—bursting in with an unannounced grandchild. It was more like something Leon would have done. She seemed to have caught some of Leon’s qualities. He seemed to have caught some of hers. (He seldom spoke of moving on any more.) She was reminded of those parking-lot accidents where one car’s fender grazes another’s. It had always puzzled her that on each fender, some of the other car’s paint appeared. You’d think the paint would only be on one car, not both. It was as if they had traded colors.
She tried to tell Leon about the lunch, once it had taken place. She led into it gradually. “Your mother’s been writing me now, you know,” she said.
But Leon said, “Emily, I don’t want to hear about it and I don’t want you to have anything to do with it. Is that clear?”
“All right, Leon,” Emily said.
And, oddly enough, even Mrs. Meredith seemed content to let things be. It seemed she only wanted the connection; just who made the connection didn’t matter so much. She liked to hear from Emily what Leon was up to. Did he help to care for Gina? “He walks her at night, and he baby-sits while I’m working in the shop,” Emily told her, “but he can’t yet bring himself to change a diaper.”
“Exactly like Burt was,” Mrs. Meredith said. “Oh, exactly!” But she never tried to press any closer than that. Maybe she found things easier as they were. She often retreated into stories about Leon’s childhood, when he had been someone she could understand. “He was a beautiful baby,” she said. “All the nurses told me so. Prettiest baby they’d ever seen! They couldn’t believe their eyes!” Somehow, everything she said had a way of slipping out of her control. “Even the doctors stopped by to take a look. This one man, a heart surgeon, he came straight from an operation just to get a glimpse of him. ‘Mrs. Meredith,’ he said, ‘I never saw a baby so beautiful in my life. Yes, sir, we’re going to hear more of that young man. He’s going to amount to something someday!’ He called his wife on the telephone; I heard him in the hall. ‘You ought to see this baby we’ve got here! Ought to see this baby!’ ” Next, Emily thought, there’d be a star beaming over the delivery room. She began to understand why Leon got so edgy around his mother. Mrs. Meredith’s rouged face, gazing brightly at a boy no one else could see, seemed deliberately shuttered and obstinate.
In fact, she made Emily feel edgy as well, and Emily never enjoyed these lunches, or came any closer to liking Mrs. Meredith. Telling her a piece of news—or even speaking to Gina in Mrs. Meredith’s presence—Emily heard her own voice take on a fulsome tone that wasn’t hers at all. She felt that nothing she could say would ever live up to Mrs. Meredith’s expectations. But what could she do? The very day after their lunch at the Elmwood, Mrs. Meredith started driving lessons. In a month she had her license and a brand-new Buick, and she drove the entire distance from Richmond to Baltimore although, she said, she was scared to death of multi-lane highways and disliked going over thirty miles per hour. When she telephoned Emily from a corner booth, breathlessly announcing, “I did it! I’m here to take you to lunch,” could Emily just say, “No, thank you,” and hang up?
They settled into a schedule: the first Wednesday of every month. Emily never told Leon about it. She knew that, eventually, Gina would tell. Now that Gina could talk, it was only a matter of time. “When me and Grandma was eating …” she’d say, and Leon would say, “You and who?” and then all hell would break loose. Till then, Emily went dutifully to lunch, frowning slightly with concentration.
One time Mr. Meredith came too. He seemed baffled by the baby. He let his wife do all the talking, while he stared around at the dingy old men slurping soup in the E-Z Cafeteria. “So where’s this son of mine?” he asked finally.