New York_ The Novel - Edward Rutherfurd [444]
The dinner went well. Liz, who always had plenty of Washington gossip, had been seated next to O’Sullivan. O’Sullivan was discreet, but well informed, and he seemed to be enjoying Liz’s company. Vorpal wanted to discover Juan’s business, and Gorham enjoyed watching him get more and more frustrated. At one point, when they were discussing real estate, old Herbert Humblay explained to them how the ancient endowments of Trinity worked. Not only had the Trinity vestry been able, down the centuries, to found one church after another out of its huge rents, but to help the work of other churches all over the world. The value of its real estate holdings in the Financial District was absolutely huge. As Vorpal listened intently to what Humblay was saying, and calculating the numbers, he began to look at the clergyman with a new respect.
And then, of course, there was Maggie. Gorham gazed down the table toward her. His wife was looking stunning tonight—her red hair had been beautifully cut that afternoon, and she’d had a manicure as well. As she smiled down the table at him, only the faintest glint in her eye gave a hint of the quarrel they’d had last night.
It was his fault, he supposed. Perhaps if he’d shared more information with her, the conversation might have been different. But then again, it might not.
He’d never told her he’d gone to see the headhunter at the start of the year. Maybe because he felt that it was an admission that he wasn’t reconciled to his life, even an admission of failure. Also, no doubt, because he was pretty sure she’d have told him to stick with the bank where he was and leave the headhunter alone. If he heard of any job he seriously wanted to consider, that would be the time to talk to Maggie about it.
Whatever the reason, Maggie had known nothing. She also did not know, therefore, that for nearly eight months, the headhunter had failed to come up with a single opportunity.
He knew the guy was good at what he did, when he called him from time to time, just to check in, he was always told the same thing.
“You have to be patient, Gorham. We’re not talking about some middle-management position here. We are looking for a really significant opportunity, a top position, and a good fit. These things only come along once in a while.”
Intellectually, Gorham understood. But he could not escape the feeling that nothing was happening, that nobody wanted him. He felt worse than ever. And his fraying temper had shown in countless small ways, mostly in a general moroseness, and occasional flashes of irritation with Maggie or the children.
So when, on Friday night, she had quietly sat him down and made her suggestion, it had come at the wrong time, and produced an unfortunate result.
“Honey,” she’d said, “I really feel you’re unhappy. And maybe it’s your marriage, but I think it’s your job.”
“Everything’s fine,” he’d snapped.
“No it isn’t, Gorham. Don’t say that. You’re not in good shape.”
“Thank you so much.”
“I just want to help, honey.”
“In what way?”
“I just don’t think you like what you do any more.”
“And?”
“With what you’ve already saved, your stock and all that, plus what I make now, we really don’t have to worry. You could quit if you want to and do something you really liked. You’re a wonderful husband and a great father. We could have a perfect family life if you were just doing something that made you happy.”
“You’re telling me to retire?”
“No, I’m just saying why not do something you enjoy? The money isn’t a problem.”
So that was it. She didn’t even need his income any more. He’d watched Maggie with admiration as she organized her career, the household, the kids’ play dates, everything. Now it seemed she was planning to organize him as well. The final indignity.