Obsidian Butterfly - Laurell K. Hamilton [205]
“If the doctor says you can have a phone, I’ll bring you one, but just in case, give me the number and I’ll contact your friend.”
I gave her Edward’s number. She wrote it down, smiled, and left.
There was a knock on the door. I expected Doctor Cunningham, but it was Detective Ramirez. His shirt today was a pale tan. The half-mast tie was deep brown with a small white and yellow design on it. But he’d also kept on a brown suit jacket that matched his pants. It was the first time I’d seen him with an entire suit on at once. I wondered if the sleeves were rolled up underneath the jacket sleeves. He had a bouquet of shiny Mylar balloons with cartoon characters on them. The balloons said things like “get well soon,” and “oh, bother.” That was the Winnie the Pooh balloon.
I had to smile. “You already sent flowers.” There was a small, but nice arrangement running long to daisies and miniature carnations on the bedside table.
“I wanted to bring something in person. I’m sorry I wasn’t here sooner.”
My smile wilted around the edges. “This level of apology is usually reserved for boyfriends or lovers, detective. Why are you feeling so guilty?”
“I keep having to remind you to call me Hernando.”
“I keep forgetting.”
“No, you don’t. You keep trying to distance yourself.”
I just looked at him. It was probably true. “Maybe.”
“If I was your lover, I’d have followed you to the hospital and been by your side every minute,” he said.
“Even with a murder investigation going on?” I asked.
He had the grace to shrug and look sheepish. “I’d have tried to be here every minute.”
“What’s been happening while I’ve been in here? My doctor has made sure I haven’t found out anything.”
Ramirez put the balloons beside the flowers. The balloons had one of those little weights on them to keep them from drifting away. “The last time I tried to see you, your doctor made me promise not to talk about the case.”
“I didn’t know you were here before.”
“You were pretty out of it.”
“Was I awake?”
He shook his head.
Great. I wondered how many other people had paraded through here while I was passed out cold. “I’m getting out today, so I think it’s safe to talk about the case.”
He looked at me, and the expression was enough. He didn’t believe me.
“Doesn’t anyone trust me?”
“You’re like most of the cops I know. You never really get off work.”
I raised my hand in the Boy Scout’s salute. “Honest, the nurse told me I’m being released today.”
He smiled. “I saw your back, remember. Even if you’re being let out, you won’t be going back on the case, not in person anyway.”
“What? I’m going to look at pictures and listen to the clues that other people find?”
He nodded. “Something like that.”
“Do I look like Nero Wolfe? I am not a staying at home, out of the firing line, kind of girl.”
He laughed, and it was still a good laugh. A nice normal laugh. It had none of Jean-Claude’s touchable sex appeal, but in some ways I liked it better for its very normalcy. But . . . but as nice and warm as Ramirez was, I had the memory of Jean-Claude’s dream in my head. I could feel the touch of his hand on mine, a touch that lingered on my skin the way an expensive perfume will linger in a room long after the woman who wears it is gone.
Maybe it was love, but whatever it was, it was hard to find a man who could compete with it, no matter how much I wanted to find one. It was as if when he was with me, all other men just faded into the background, except Richard. Was that what it meant to be in love? Was it? I wish I knew.
“What are you thinking about?” Ramirez asked.
“Nothing.”
“Whatever that nothing is, it makes you look very serious, almost sad.” He’d moved very close to the bed, fingers touching the edge of the sheet. His face was gentle, questioning, very open. I realized in a way that Ramirez had my ticket. He knew what punched my buttons, partly just coincidence, partly he read me well. He read what I liked and what I hated in a man better than Jean-Claude had for years. I liked honesty, openness, and a sort of little boy charm. There were