Of Human Bondage - W. Somerset Maugham [83]
She smiled and gave him a long look with her black eyes.
After supper he insisted that she should come out.
“Haven’t you had enough exercise for one day?”
“It’ll be lovely in the garden tonight. The stars are all out.”
He was in high spirits.
“D’you know, Mrs. Carey has been scolding me on your account?” said Miss Wilkinson, when they were sauntering through the kitchen-garden. “She says I mustn’t flirt with you.”
“Have you been flirting with me? I hadn’t noticed it.”
“She was only joking.”
“It was very unkind of you to refuse to kiss me last night.”
“If you saw the look your uncle gave me when I said what I did!”
“Was that all that prevented you?”
“I prefer to kiss people without witnesses.”
“There are no witnesses now.”
Philip put his arm round her waist and kissed her lips. She only laughed a little and made no attempt to withdraw. It had come quite naturally. Philip was very proud of himself. He said he would, and he had. It was the easiest thing in the world. He wished he had done it before. He did it again.
“Oh, you mustn’t,” she said.
“Why not?”
“Because I liked it,” she laughed.
XXXIV
Next day after dinner they took their rugs and cushions to the fountain, and their books; but they did not read. Miss Wilkinson made herself comfortable and she opened the red sun-shade. Philip was not at all shy now, but at first she would not let him kiss her.
“It was very wrong of me last night,” she said. “I couldn’t sleep, I felt I’d done so wrong.”
“What nonsense!” he cried. “I’m sure you slept like a top.”
“What do you think your uncle would say if he knew?”
“There’s no reason why he should know.”
He leaned over her, and his heart went pit-a-pat.
“Why d’you want to kiss me?”
He knew he ought to reply: “Because I love you.” But he could not bring himself to say it.
“Why do you think?” he asked instead.
She looked at him with smiling eyes and touched his face with the tips of her fingers.
“How smooth your face is,” she murmured.
“I want shaving awfully,” he said.
It was astonishing how difficult he found it to make romantic speeches. He found that silence helped him much more than words. He could look inexpressible things. Miss Wilkinson sighed.
“Do you like me at all?”
“Yes, awfully.”
When he tried to kiss her again she did not resist. He pretended to be much more passionate than he really was, and he succeeded in playing a part which looked very well in his own eyes.
“I’m beginning to be rather frightened of you,” said Miss Wilkinson.
“You’ll come out after supper, won’t you?” he begged.
“Not unless you promise to behave yourself.”
“I’ll promise anything.”
He was catching fire from the flame he was partly simulating, and at tea-time he was obstreperously merry. Miss Wilkinson looked at him nervously.
“You mustn’t have those shining eyes,” she said to him afterward. “What will your Aunt Louisa think?”
“I don’t care what she thinks.”
Miss Wilkinson gave a little laugh of pleasure. They had no sooner finished supper than he said to her:
“Are you going to keep me company while I smoke a cigarette?”
“Why don’t you let Miss Wilkinson rest?” said Mrs. Carey. “You must remember she’s not as young as you.”
“Oh, I’d like to go out, Mrs. Carey,” she said, rather acidly.
“After dinner walk a mile, after supper rest a while,” said the Vicar.
“Your aunt is very nice, but she gets on my nerves sometimes,” said Miss Wilkinson, as soon as they closed the side-door behind them.
Philip threw away the cigarette he had just lighted, and flung his arms round her. She tried to push him away.
“You promised you’d be good, Philip.”
“You didn’t think I was going to keep a promise like that?”
“Not so near the house, Philip,” she said. “Supposing someone should come out suddenly?”
He led her to the kitchen garden where no one was likely to come, and this time Miss Wilkinson did not think of earwigs. He kissed her passionately. It was one of the things that puzzled him that he did not like her at all in the morning, and only moderately in the afternoon, but at night the touch of her hand