One Second After [142]
He looked at the eight. Several stood defiant, the same as the punk with the snake tattoo long ago. John looked into their eyes wondering, wondering why. Was this inside all of us? He turned and looked back, the hundreds gathered falling silent, and on more than one he now saw that same cold gaze. And he slowly turned back.
Makala was indeed right. Three of the prisoners, one a girl, were not much more than kids, fourteen, fifteen at most, though all three had that distant look of coldness and ice. He wondered if they were like that long before all this had ever started, gangbangers, as Washington had said, kids who would kill even then and think it a joke.
Next to them was a woman in her early twenties, shaking, so terrified that a trickle of urine was running down her leg, pooling at her feet. The next was an old man, eyes vacant, crazed, and beside him was a Hispanic kid, lips moving, the Spanish all but unintelligible but now obviously praying a Hail Mary.
"Kevin."
Malady came down to John's side. "Get out your knife."
Kevin looked at John, hesitated, but then obeyed.
The eyes of one of the three defiant men widened. "Shoot me and be done with it," he said coldly. "But not the knife, man." "Cut their bonds." "What?"
"I said cut their bonds."
Kevin stepped behind each and cut their hands free. None of them moved.
John looked back at his students, his neighbors, his friends. "It's over," he said.
There was a murmur of complaint from the crowd. "What's to prevent those bastards from coming back tonight and trying to cut our throats?" John shook his head. "I was wrong."
"For killing them?" someone shouted.
"They killed our wounded without mercy!" a girl cried, one of his students, a girl who had been a Bible major long ago.
"And we have killed theirs. Washington and I ordered it because there is not even a fraction of the supplies needed to take care of our own."
"Cannibals!"
John nodded.
"Yes. Some undoubtedly yes. I won't bother to ask these, because they will lie to save their lives." He wearily shook his head.
"I'm stopping it because I started to love it. I hate them. I hated that bastard hanging there more than I've ever hated anyone in my life....
"But I will not become him.... I will not let us become them. Because God save us, we are on the edge of that now, here at this moment."
He did not wait for a reply but turned back to face the prisoners.
"I'm not going to go through some bullshit ritual of you swearing to me that you will leave, never return, and repent."
The Hispanic boy started to nod his head, went to his knees, and made the sign of the cross repeatedly.
"Remember what you saw here. Don't ever come back. All of you, if you survive, will carry the mark of Cain upon you forever for what you've done. If you come across other bands like yours tell them what happened here, and tell them they will face the same defeat.
"I ask but one thing. We've given you back your lives. Do not take any more lives, for then you surely will be damned forever."
He started to turn away. Go!
Six did not hesitate; they simply turned and ran. The boy on his knees looked up at John wide-eyed and moved as if to kiss his feet. He backed away from the boy and motioned for him to get up and leave.
"Gracias, senor." He turned and ran off.
The young woman who in her terror had urinated just stood there, unable to move.
"Go," John said softly.
"Where?"
"Just go."
"I'm sorry. God forgive me, I'm sorry. I don't know if I can live now with what I've done. I'm sorry."
Sobbing, she turned and slowly walked away. John turned and faced the crowd.
"Cut those bodies down," he said, then paused. "Except for their leader. I want a sign under him. 'Hung as punishment for leading the gang known as the Posse, murderers, rapists, and cannibals. May God have mercy on his soul and all who followed him.'"
John holstered his Glock and walked back to the rest, his soldiers, his neighbors, his friends parting as he passed, many with heads now lowered.
"You were right, John," someone whispered.
His soldiers.