Paladin of Souls - Lois McMaster Bujold [15]
A not entirely harmonious but thoroughly good-natured duet rose behind them, fading with distance.
“I’m not,” said Ista. A slow smile curved her lips. I’m not.
CHAPTER TWO
I STA SAT IN HER MOTHER’S ROSE ARBOR, TWISTING A FINE HANDKERCHIEF in her fingers. Her lady attendant sat near her, poking at a piece of embroidery with a needle as narrow as, though rather sharper than, her mind. Ista had paced the garden round and round in the cool morning air till the woman, her voice rising, had begged her to stop. She paused now in her sewing to stare at Ista’s hands, and Ista, irritably, set the tortured scrap of linen aside. Beneath her skirts, safely hidden, one silk-slippered foot took up a nervous—no, furious—drumming.
A gardener bustled about, watering the flowers in the tubs placed around all the doorways for the Daughter’s Season, just as he had done for years under the direction of the old Provincara. Ista wondered how long it would be before those drilled habits died away—or would they continue forever, as if the old lady’s meticulous ghost still oversaw each task? But no, her soul had truly been taken up, and out of the world of men; there were no new ghosts in the castle, or Ista would have felt them. All the sundered spirits left here were ancient and tired and fading, a mere chill in the walls at night.
She breathed out through pursed lips, flexing both curtained feet. She had waited several days to spring to her castle warder the proposal that she go on pilgrimage this season, in hopes that he would have forgotten the Widow Caria. A pilgrimage in humility, with only a small company; few attendants, simple gear, no royal train a hundred riders long, as he seemed instantly to think would be the minimum required. Dy Ferrej had thrown up a dozen annoyingly practical objections, and wondered at her sudden piety. He’d dismissed Ista’s hint that she sought penance for her sins, being under the impression that she could have committed none to speak of under his good guard. Which was, she had to admit, certainly the case for such gross sins of the flesh as he imagined; dy Ferrej was not a theologically subtle man. As Ista’s arguments had grown more intense, dy Ferrej had grown more stolid and cautious, till Ista had to bite back a frantic urge to scream at the man. The more fiercely she pleaded, the worse she made her case sound in his ears, she was sure. A galling paradox.
A page trotted across the garden, favoring Ista with a most peculiar bow in passing, a sort of bending in midbounce. He disappeared into the keep. A few minutes later dy Ferrej appeared with the page at his heels, and trod gravely back across the garden. The castle keys, mark of his wardship, jingled at his belt.
“Where away, dy Ferrej?” Ista called idly. She forced her feet to stillness.
He paused and gave her a bow, suitable to her rank and his dignity and girth, and made the page do his over correctly as well. “I am told some riders from Cardegoss have arrived, Royina.” He hesitated briefly. “Your argument that I, by my oath to you and yours, owed you obedience as well as protection has been much on my mind.”
Ah-ha, so that one had struck home. Good. Ista smiled slightly.
He smiled slightly back, the openly relieved expression on his features edged with triumph. “As my pleas did not seem to move you, I wrote to court to ask those to whom you will listen to add their voices, and their more august authority, to my own. Old dy Ferrej indeed has no right to thwart you, save for whatever forbearance he may be owed—no, that you may bestow upon him in charity—for his years of service—”
Ista’s lips thinned at his words. I cry a foul.
“But Royina Iselle and Royse Bergon are your liege lords now, as well as having concern for your safety as their mother, and I believe Chancellor dy Cazaril is a man whose opinion you do somewhat regard. If I’m not mistaken, some calming advice