Paladin of Souls - Lois McMaster Bujold [150]
“Oh, quite as he is now,” Illvin responded. “Not as polished or practiced, perhaps. Not as broad in the shoulder.” A smile of memory flickered over his mouth. “Not as levelheaded.”
“Not as dead,” growled Arhys, frowning at his hands, which he was stretching and clenching again. Testing for numbness? For increasing numbness?
“When I was young and beautiful, at court in Cardegoss . . .” When Arhys had not yet been married even once. When all things were still possible. Might she then have taken a dy Lutez as a lover after all, and made the false slander true? And yet Fonsa’s dark curse had blighted all budding hopes in that court—to what horrors might it have bent that sweet dream, to what disasters drawn Arhys’s youthful brilliance? Would it be true or false comfort to suggest to Arhys that Arvol had kept him away for his own safety? She suppressed a shudder. “It was still too late.”
Arhys blinked at her, missing the implications, but Illvin grunted a pained laugh. “Imagine you’d met him before you’d married Ias, then, as long as you’re spinning might-have-beens,” he advised dryly. He cast her an odd look. “All my might-have-beens come out the same either way.”
The wagon bumped and rocked, marking a turn off the road. Ista peeked out to discover that they had returned to the walled village, and were stopping in the olive grove again to water the horses. The sun had climbed to noon, and the day was growing very hot.
Ista clambered down for a moment to stretch her half-healed legs and get a drink. Liss still had Lord Illvin’s white horse in tow, watering it at the stream. Illvin looked out longingly at it, then abruptly disappeared back inside the wagon. Voices came from behind the canvas, some sort of argument involving Illvin, Goram, and the manservant. Illvin emerged a few minutes later smiling in satisfaction, wearing his groom’s leather trousers and the manservant’s boots below his light linen robe. The trousers were cinched in around his waist and barely reached his calves, but the boots made up the difference.
Illvin reclaimed his horse and grinned as he mounted it. Appreciation for a body up and moving at will through the bright world again was plain in his face, perhaps the more keenly felt for the fragility of the stolen moment. He let Liss help lengthen his stirrups, spoke a word of thanks, settled in his saddle, and gave Ista a cheery salute.
Goram, Ista was relieved to see, now wore a pair of ill-fitting linen trousers evidently borrowed from the wagon’s scanty store, though the hapless manservant was left barefoot. The Daughter’s men helped roll up the wagon’s canvas sides partway, as the heat of the day was making the suffocating stuffiness a greater trial than the dust of the road. Not, Ista conceded, that Lord Arhys was likely to notice either one. They started off again. Foix disposed four of his men before and two behind the lumbering wagon, and Illvin and Liss rode along at either side, within easy speaking distance.
A few miles from the village they topped the rise, swung right along the slope, and began their drop into the broad valley that Porifors guarded. They rounded a stand of trees; abruptly, Foix flung up a hand. Their little party ground to a halt.
Illvin rose in his stirrups, his eyes widening. Ista and Arhys scrambled to the front of the wagon and looked out. Arhys’s lips drew back, and his teeth clenched, though only Ista’s breath drew in, harsh as a rasp down her dry throat.
Turning onto the road just ahead of them from some cross-country push was a large column of cavalry. The white pelicans of Jokona glowed on their sea-green tabards. Their armor glinted. Their spearpoints winked in the light in a long line, stitched like jewels across a courtier’s cloak in the descending folds of the land.
CHAPTER TWENTY
A LOW MOAN BROKE FROM GORAM’S LIPS AS HE CROUCHED, GRAY with fear, over his team’s reins.
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