Roadwork - Stephen King [54]
He began to shiver and seized his knees in a futile effort to stop it. In the night everything was strange. What was he doing, sitting on the floor of his living room and holding his knees and shaking like an old drunk in an alley? Or like a catatonic, a fucking psycho, that was more like it. Was that it? Was he a psycho? Nothing sort of funny and whimsical like a fruitcake or a dork or a rubber crutch but an out-and-out psycho? The thought dumped him into fresh terror. Had he gone to a hoodlum in an effort to get explosives? Was he really hiding two guns out in the garage, one of them big enough to kill an elephant? A little whining noise came out of his throat and he got up tentatively, his bones creaking like those of a very old man.
He went up the stairs without allowing himself to think, and stepped into his bedroom. "Olivia?" he whispered. This was preposterous, like an old-time Rudolph Valentino movie. "Are you awake?"
"Yes," she said. She didn't even sound sleepy. "The clock was keeping me awake. That digital clock. It kept going click. I pulled the plug."
"That's all right," he said. It was a ludicrous thing to say. "I had a bad dream. " The sound of covers being thrown back. "Come on. Get in with me."
"I-"
"Will you shut up?"
He got in with her. She was naked. They made love. Then slept.
In the morning, the temperature was only 10 degrees. She asked him if he got a newspaper.
"We used to," he said. "Kenny Upslinger delivered it. His family moved to Iowa. "
"Iowa, yet," she said, and turned on the radio. A man was giving the weather. Clear and cold.
"Would you like a fried egg?"
"Two, if you've got them."
"Sure. Listen, about last night-"
"Never mind last night. I came. That's very rare for me. I enjoyed it. "
He felt a certain sneaking pride, maybe what she had wanted him to feel. He fried the eggs. Two for her, two for him. Toast and coffee. She drank three cups with cream and sugar.
"So what are you going to do?" she asked him when they had both finished.
"Take you out to the highway," he said promptly.
She made an impatient gesture. "Not that. About your life. "
He grinned. "That sounds serious."
"Not for me," she said. "For you."
"I haven't thought about it," he said. "You know, before"-he accented the word before slightly to indicate all of his life and all of its parts he had sailed off the edge of the world-"before the ax fell, I think I must have felt the way some condemned man feels in the death house. Nothing seemed real. It seemed I was living in a glass dream that would go on and on. Now everything seems real. Last night that was very real. "
I'm glad," she said, and she looked glad. "But what will you do now?"
"I really don't know."
She said: "I think that's sad. "
"Is it?" he asked. It was a real question.
They were in the car again, driving Route 7 toward Landy. The traffic near the city was stop and go. People were on their way to work. When they passed the construction on the 784 extension, the day's operation was already cranking up. Men in yellow hi-impact plastic construction hats and green rubber boots were climbing into their machines, frozen breath pluming from their mouths. The engine of one of the orange city payloaders cranked, cranked, kicked over with a coughing mortar-explosion sound, cranked again, then roared into a choppy idle. The driver gunned it in irregular bursts like the sound of warfare.
"From up here they look like little boys playing trucks in a sandpile," she said.
Outside the city, traffic smoothed out. She had taken the two hundred dollars with neither embarrassment nor reluctance-with no special eagerness, either. She had slit a small section of the CPO coat's lining, had put the bills inside, and had then sewed the slit back up with a needle and some blue thread from Mary's sewing box. She had refused his offer of a ride to the bus station, saying the money would last longer if she went on hitching.