Room_ A Novel - Emma Donoghue [108]
“Jack,” she says, “put that stinky rug back where it was.”
“You’re the stinky,” I roar.
She’s pressing on her chest. “Leo,” she says over her shoulder, “I swear, I’ve had just about as much—”
Steppa comes up the stairs and picks me up.
I drop Rug. Steppa kicks my Dora bag out of the way. He’s carrying me, I’m screaming and hitting him because it’s allowed, it’s a special case, I can kill him even, I’m killing and killing him—
“Leo,” wails Grandma downstairs, “Leo—”
Fee fie foe fum, he’s going to rip me in pieces, he’s going to wrap me in Rug and bury me and the worms crawl in, the worms crawl out—
Steppa drops me on the blow-up, but it doesn’t hurt.
He sits down on the end so it all goes up like a wave. I’m still crying and shaking and my snot’s getting on the sheet.
I stop crying. I feel under the blow-up for Tooth, I put him in my mouth and suck hard. He doesn’t taste like anything anymore.
Steppa’s hand is on the sheet just beside me, it’s got hairs on the fingers.
His eyes are waiting for my eyes. “All fair and square, water under the bridge?”
I move Tooth to my gum. “What?”
“Want to have pie on the couch and watch the game?”
“OK.”
• • •
I pick up branches fallen off the trees, even enormous heavy ones. Me and Grandma tie them into bundles with string for the city to take them. “How does the city—?”
“The guys from the city, I mean, the guys whose job it is.”
When I grow up my job is going to be a giant, not the eating kind, the kind that catches kids that are falling into the sea maybe and puts them back on land.
I shout, “Dandelion alert,” Grandma scoops it out with her trowel so the grass can grow, because there isn’t room for everything.
When we’re tired we go in the hammock, even Grandma. “I used to sit like this with your ma when she was a baby.”
“Did you give her some?”
“Some what?”
“From your breast.”
Grandma shakes her head. “She used to bend back my fingers while she had her bottle.”
“Where’s the tummy mommy?”
“The—oh, you know about her? I have no idea, I’m afraid.”
“Did she get another baby?”
Grandma doesn’t say anything. Then she says, “That’s a nice thought.”
• • •
I’m painting at the kitchen table in Grandma’s old apron that has a crocodile and I Ate Gator on the Bayou. I’m not doing proper pictures, just splotches and stripes and spirals, I use all the colors, I even mix them in puddles. I like to make a wet bit then fold the paper over like Grandma showed me, so when I unfold it it’s a butterfly.
There’s Ma in the window.
The red spills. I try and wipe it up but it’s all on my foot and the floor. Ma’s face isn’t there anymore, I run to the window but she’s gone. Was I just imagining? I’ve got red on the window and the sink and the counter. “Grandma?” I shout. “Grandma?”
Then Ma’s right behind me.
I run to nearly at her. She goes to hug me but I say, “No, I’m all painty.”
She laughs, she undoes my apron and drops it on the table. She holds me hard all over but I keep my sticky hands and foot away. “I wouldn’t know you,” she says to my head.
“Why you wouldn’t—?”
“I guess it’s your hair.”
“Look, I have some long in a bracelet, but it keeps getting catched on things.”
“Can I have it?”
“Sure.”
The bracelet gets some paint on it sliding off my wrist. Ma puts it on hers. She looks different but I don’t know how. “Sorry I made you red on your arm.”
“It’s all washable,” says Grandma, coming in.
“You didn’t tell him I was coming?” asks Ma, giving her a kiss.
“Ithought it best not,incase of a hitch.”
“There’s no hitches.”
“Good to hear it.” Grandma wipes her eyes and starts cleaning the paint up. “Now, Jack’s been sleeping on a blow-up mattress in our room, but I can make you up a bed on the couch . . .”
“Actually, we better head off.”
Grandma stands still for a minute. “You’ll stay for a bit of supper?”
“Sure,” says Ma.
Steppa makes pork chops with risotto, I don’t like the bone bits but I eat all the rice and scrape the sauce with my fork. Steppa steals a bit of my pork.
“Swiper no