Russka - Edward Rutherfurd [479]
How wonderful it was. He felt suffused with a strange sensation of warmth inside his stomach. When a moment later some children ran out into the yard, and he was afraid he might lose his train of thought, he found that with an effort of will he could hold the chords in his mind so that they did not slip away. And he experienced a small pang of fear, which he did not understand, as though the sunset and the tree had said to him: ‘If you step forward now, little boy, you will lose yourself and belong only to music.’ And being uncertain what this meant, he had decided to preserve this blessed state of being in his mind, as, sometimes, he would preserve a dream, that he might return to it later.
That had been the start. His life had never been the same after that. By a small act of concentration he found that he could step back into this dream whenever he wished; soon the periods of contemplation grew longer, and might last for hours, during which his concentration grew so deep that he could have entire conversations with people, or eat a meal, and emerge with no recollection of these events at all.
Very soon, he had noticed other things. Once he stepped into his other world, it seemed to him that he was not inventing music, but listening to it – that the wonderful harmonies he heard came outside himself; they were given to him, though he could not say with certainty by whom or by what. And before long, the musical otherworld began to invade the everyday world, like a light encroaching upon shadow, so that even such mundane things as a carriage in the street or a dog barking now seemed to Dimitri to contain their own music which he would joyfully discover. His whole mind, now, became crowded with musical phantoms: the people he saw every day, his schoolmasters, his mother, his Uncle Vladimir, came to be presences, each with a voice – his father a tenor, Uncle Vladimir a rich baritone – like characters in some wonderful opera that was as yet only partially revealed to him.
And – this perhaps was the most wonderful thing of all – it was often as if, stretching before him on an endless, symphonic plain, he could perceive the lives of all people and all things, including his own small life: so that his joys and sorrows became part of that huge, echoing process, and were returned to him as music. When the young men from the Black Hundreds attacked Dimitri, therefore, the pain they caused him only turned to music in his mind.
Two events took place that summer, however, which did make a deep impression upon Dimitri.
In June, the Tsar dissolved the Duma; and on the very next day, a new electoral system was announced. ‘The Tsar couldn’t stomach the Socialists,’ Peter announced on his return. ‘This new system is quite amazing,’ he remarked. Under the Tsar’s new rules, the vote of a landowner counted for that of roughly five hundred and forty workers. ‘The conservative gentry will have a majority. And I’m out for certain.’
‘But is it legal? Can the Tsar just break the rules like that?’ Dimitri demanded.
Peter shrugged. ‘It’s illegal according to the constitution issued last year. But since he made the rules then, the Tsar reckons he can change them now.’ He smiled. ‘The Tsar honestly believes it’s his duty to be an autocrat, you know. He thinks Russia is like a huge family estate he’s got to pass on to his son exactly as it was when his father gave it to him. He calls it his sacred trust.’ He shook his head wearily. ‘It’s so stupid it’s almost funny, really.’
But though his father was philosophical, young Dimitri could tell that he was inwardly outraged. There was another worrying side to these events, also. The Tsar’s new minister Stolypin was a highly able man, bent on reforming the backward empire. ‘But reforms can only take place after pacification,’ he had declared; and his pacification had been thorough. No less than a thousand people suspected of terrorist involvement had been executed last year – ‘Stolypin’s necktie’ Russians now called the hangman’s noose. Police spies were