Something Borrowed - Emily Giffin [96]
Darcy laughs. "Good ole June! I wonder if she's dead yet."
"Nah. I'm sure she's still there, asking kids in her raspy voice if they want marinara or meat sauce on their rigatoni."
When she finally stops laughing, she says, "Aww. This feels just like a sleepover from way back."
"Yeah. It does," I say, as a wave of fondness for Darcy washes over me.
"We had fun as kids, didn't we?"
"Yeah. We did."
Darcy starts laughing again.
"What?" I ask.
"Do you remember the time we spent the night at Annalise's house and hanged her sister's Barbie dolls?"
I crack up, picturing the Barbies, tied with yarn around their necks, dangling from the doorways. Annalise's little sister cried hysterically to her parents, who promptly met with the two other sets of parents to come up with a suitable punishment. We could not play together for a week, which is a long time in the summer. "That was sort of sick now that I think about it," I say.
"I know! And remember how Annalise kept saying it wasn't her idea?"
"Yeah. Nothing ever was her idea," I say.
"We always thought of the cool stuff. She was a big-time coattailer."
"Yeah," I say.
I am quiet, thinking about our childhood. I remember the day we were dropped off at the mall with our paltry sixth-grade savings, racing to the Piercing Pagoda to purchase our "best friend" necklaces, a heart inscribed with the two words, split down the middle, each side of the charm hanging from a gold-plated chain. Darcy took the "Be Fri" half, I got the "st end" half. Of course, we were so worried about Annalise's feelings that we only wore the necklaces in secret, under our turtlenecks, or in bed at night. But I remember the thrill of tucking my half of the heart inside my shirt, against my skin. I had a best friend. There was such security in that, such a sense of identity and belonging.
I still have my necklace buried in my jewelry box, the gold plate turned green with grit and time, but now also tarnished with something impossible to remove. I am suddenly overcome with profound sadness for those two little girls. For what is now gone between them. For what might never be regained, no matter what happens with Dex.
"Talk more," Darcy says sweetly. There is no trace of the brash, self-centered bride-to-be whom I have come to resent, even dislike. "Please don't sleep yet. We never get to hang out like this anymore. I miss it."
"Me too," I say, meaning it.
I ask her if she remembers the day we bought our "best friend" necklaces.
"Yes. But remind me about the details," she says in her charming way.
Darcy loves to hear my accounts of our childhood, always praising my more complete memory. I tell her the story of the necklaces, give her the longest version possible. After I am finished, I whisper, "Are you asleep?"
No answer.
As I listen to Darcy breathing in the dark beside me, I wonder how we got to this. How we could be in love with the same person. How I could be sabotaging my best friend's engagement. In the final seconds before sleep, I wish I could go back and undo everything, give those little girls another chance.
* * *
The next morning, I am awakened by the sound of Darcy rummaging through my medicine cabinet. I listen to her bang around as I try to piece together my dreams from the night before, a series of incoherent vignettes featuring a wide cast of the usual characters—my parents, Darcy, Dex, Marcus, even Les. The plot is unclear, but I recall a fair amount of running and hiding. I almost kissed Dex a dozen times, but never did. I can't even be satisfied in my dreams. Darcy emerges from the bathroom with a happy face.
"I'm not hungover at all," she announces. "Although I took some Advil just in case. You're out. Hope you didn't need any."
"I'm fine," I say.
"Not bad for the day after a bachelorette party! What do you want to do today? Can we spend the day together? Just doing