Southampton Row - Anne Perry [64]
She had never seriously considered before that Jack might lose. She had thought only of the opportunities ahead, the privileges and the pleasures. Now she realized with a chill as the carriage lurched forward again, and the shouting of irate drivers cut the warm air, that if he lost there would be a bitter change to get used to, just as harsh as that which Charlotte faced now. Invitations would be different, parties immeasurably more tedious. How would she go back to the idleness of society after the thrill in the blood of politics, the heady dream of power? And sharp and very real, how could she hide her own humiliation that she no longer had anything worthwhile to do?
The resolve that Jack must win tightened in her. She was perfectly aware of her own motives, and it made no difference what-ever. Reason did not touch emotion any more than sunlight touches the deep-sea currents. She must do all that was within her ability to help.
She needed someone else to talk to. Charlotte was in Dartmoor; she did not even know precisely where. Her mother, Caroline, was on tour with her second husband, Joshua, an actor presently playing the lead in one of Mr. Wilde’s plays in Liverpool.
But even had they been at home, her first choice for confidante would have been Lady Vespasia Cumming-Gould, a great-aunt of her first husband who had remained one of her dearest friends. Therefore she now leaned forward and commanded her coachman to take her to Vespasia’s house, even though she had never written or left a card, which was a complete break of etiquette. But then Vespasia had never allowed rules to prevent her from doing what she believed to be right, and would almost certainly forgive Emily for doing the same.
Emily was fortunate in that Vespasia was in and had half an hour since said good-bye to her last visitor.
“My dear Emily, what a pleasure to see you,” Vespasia said without rising from her seat by the window of the sitting room. It was all pale colors and full of sunlight. “The more especially at this extraordinary hour,” she added, “since it must be something of great interest or urgency which brings you. Do sit down and tell me what it is.” She waved impassively at the chair opposite her own, and then regarded Emily’s costume with a critical eye. She was stiff-backed, silver-haired, and still had the marvelous eyes and bones which had made her the greatest beauty of her generation. She had never followed fashion, she had always led it. “Very becoming,” she gave her approval. “You have been calling upon someone you wish to impress . . . a woman who takes her clothes very seriously, I imagine.”
Emily smiled with a sharp sense of pleasure, and relief at being in the company of someone she liked without shadow or equivocation. “Yes,” she agreed. “Rose Serracold. Do you know of her?” Vespasia would not be socially acquainted with Rose, since there were the best part of two generations, a gulf of social status, and a considerable degree of wealth, even though Aubrey was more than comfortable, between them. Emily had no idea whether Vespasia would approve of Rose’s political opinions. Vespasia could be very extreme herself on occasions, and had fought like a tigress for the reforms in which she believed. But she was also a realist, and fiercely practical. She could very easily see the Socialist ideals as ill-based in the realities of human nature.
“And what in Mrs. Serracold’s visit brought you here, rather than home to change for dinner?” Vespasia asked. “Is she related to Aubrey Serracold, who is standing for Lambeth South, and according to the newspapers has expressed some rather foolish ideals?”
“Yes, she is his wife.”
“Emily, I am not a dentist to be extracting information from you, like teeth!”
“I’m sorry,” Emily said contritely. “It all seems so absurd now I come to put it into words.”
“Many things do,” Vespasia observed. “That does not mean they are not real. Is it to do with Thomas?” There was a sharp note of concern in her voice, and her eyes were shadowed.