Storm Warning - Mercedes Lackey [87]
And maybe fish would fly—but it was worth trying. Anything was better than sitting here, feeling ready to drown himself in his own despair.
Feeling sorry for myself isn’t going to fix anything either.
He managed to get himself up out of his chair; that was the hard part. Once he had a destination, momentum got him there. The kitchen gardens were deserted, as he had thought—with the sole exception of one very old Priest of some group that wore yellow robes. The old man sat and dreamed in the sun, just like any of the old Red-robes in the Temple meditation gardens; his presence almost made the place seem homelike.
With a bit of searching, Karal found a sheltered spot, a stone bench partially hidden by baybushes and barberry-bushes. He moved into their shade, and slumped down on the cool stone.
The depression didn’t even fade, not the tiniest bit. Now that he was out here, the bright sunshine didn’t seem to make any real difference to how he felt.
He closed his eyes and a lump began to fill his throat; his chest tightened and ached, and so did his stomach. Why had he come here? Why didn’t he find a reason not to go? Why hadn’t he let someone older, more experienced, come with Ulrich? He could have found a new mentor, couldn’t he? And even if the new Priest wasn’t as kindhearted as Ulrich, wouldn’t dealing with a new mentor have been better than being this lonely? Did it matter that Ulrich was the only person who had ever been kind to him since he’d been taken away from his family? He had survived indifference and even unkindness before—and at least he would have been home! He would not have been stranded in a strange land, where everyone was a potential enemy.
“And lo, I was a stranger, and in a strange realm, and no man knew me. Every man’s heart was set against me, and every man’s hand empty to me. ”
He jumped, stifling an undignified squeak; he opened his eyes involuntarily. Who could be quoting from the Writ of Vkandis, and with such a terrible accent?
For a moment he did not recognize the woman who stood just in front of him, smiling slightly; she was dressed in a leather tunic and breeches like Kerowyn wore, though not so tight, and of white leather rather than brown.
A mature woman, rather than a girl, he guessed she was somewhere around thirty years old. She wasn’t very tall; in fact, she would probably come up to his chin at best; her abundant and curly chestnut hair had just a few strands of silver in it, and her eyes were somewhere between green and brown in color. She gave an oddly contradictory impression of both fragility and strength.
Then his mind cleared, and his memory returned; he had been fooled by her clothing. He had never seen this particular Herald in anything other than formal Court costume before. Talia—the Queen’s Own Herald.
Granted, she was a Sun-priest, but how had she learned the Writ? Why had she bothered? There was no real need for her to have done so; the office was only honorary.
“Thought I wouldn’t take my office as Priest of Vkandis seriously, did you?” she said, with a smile that was full of mischief. “Maybe Solaris only meant the title to be honorary, but it seemed to me I ought to give the honor its due respect, and learn something about the one I was supposed to be representing.”
“Oh,” he said, feeling very stupid and slow-witted. But then he realized that she was speaking in his tongue, and as bad as her accent was, the words soaked into him like rain into dry ground. He wanted to hear more; he needed to hear more.
“I thought that particular quote seemed awfully apt, given how you looked when I came up,” she continued. “Not at all happy, actually. Of course, it could just be indigestion—”
She cocked her head to the side, as if inviting his confidences. He hesitated. She seemed friendly enough, but how much difficulty could he get himself into by talking to her?
On the other hand, she’s not only a Herald, she’s one of the Kin of Vkandis. If she did hurt one of the Kin, wouldn’t the Sunlord do something about that?
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