Tears on a Sunday Afternoon - Michael Presley [53]
I was astounded. I knew that Julie liked me but I didn’t know the extent of her feelings. Now it was my turn to feel ashamed and stupid. “Julie, I didn’t know.”
“Of course you didn’t know, because you could only see Donald.” Julie was crying.
I sat down on the couch and gently eased her into my arms. “Why didn’t you say something?”
Julie got up from my chest and turned around to look me directly in the eyes. “You’ve dated so many beautiful women—doctors, lawyers and models. Donald, how could I compete with those women?”
I kissed her softly on the cheek. “Julie, you don’t have to compete with those women. They meant absolutely nothing to me. I’ve always cared for you but I’ve always run away from you. You know the life I live. I didn’t want you to be destroyed with me. I loved you so much that I didn’t want you to get hurt. You have so much to give a man.”
Julie rose from the chair and walked away to lean on her bedroom door. “Brian is a good guy.”
I remained seated. “I agree; Brian is a good guy.”
“I have no doubt that he’ll stay with me and be faithful. Brian isn’t trying to fuck the world like you.” Her voice was stern and penetrating. “To follow my heart and be with you would only lead to failure.”
“Do you not want to follow your heart?”
I got up from the couch and walked to her. She took a few steps back into the bedroom. I had seen Julie’s bedroom a thousand times but that day it felt like I was seeing it for the first time.
“Donald, there’s a big difference between following your heart into eternity, as opposed to following your heart into destruction.” She sat down on the bed.
“Julie, I came here to get the directions to your heart. Today, you tell me that I’m already there. You know that I would be lying if I told you that the road I have chosen will be an easy one. Actually, I know it’s going to be an extremely difficult one. I’ll have to do things that might break me or push me forward. I offer no guarantees and that’s the God’s honest truth. But today, I’ll also tell you another God’s honest truth. I love you. In a few days, all hell will break loose and my life will either come to an end or I’ll move on with the journey.”
I sat down next to her on the bed and took her face in my hands. I pulled her toward me and bent her head ever so slightly as I laid a kiss on her forehead. “It’s your decision.”
“Donald.” She slipped her hand in mine as I got up to leave.
“All I’m asking is that you think about it.” I bent to kiss her hand ever so gently. “Tomorrow, I have a terrible job to do.”
“Do you want to talk about it?”
I began to make my way toward the door. “Maybe one day.”
Julie followed me. “Be careful.”
“I will.”
As I walked away from the doorway, I turned around to look at her once more. I saw a reflection of myself in her eyes, the reflection of a troubled soul moving toward salvation or an end. It seemed like I had been going back on my word lately and tomorrow wouldn’t be any different. Tomorrow, I was going to fuck my wife, something I said I would never do.
Chapter 14
7TH DAY
I attempted to fantasize so that my dick would get hard as I sat down in front of the 50-inch Panasonic plasma TV. As was the case with most of the latest black pornos, the women were taking it in all three holes. I was watching Gang Bang 179 and while I didn’t see Gang Bang 1 through Gang Bang 178, I assumed they followed a similar pattern. Some fellas got together and then invited a few women over until dick, pussy, ass and mouth were thrown all over the place. The brothers were huge; the white and black women accommodating. A jealous man would’ve taken the remote and thrown it at the TV. I wasn’t lacking in penis size, yet the brothers on the screen were putting me to shame. With deep concentration and the visual motivation on screen, my penis finally stood up for roll call. This was one time sex was going to be very painful. Lauren and I had exchanged STD test results so, I was somewhat safe to go in without cover.
As I tugged on my penis, my stomach began to rumble. I wanted it to be the shortest time