The Black Lung Captain - Chris Wooding [71]
He heard a noise by the door and stuffed the letter back under the pillow just as Harkins peeped in. He was carrying a large butterfly net. His eyes roamed the room nervously.
“Pinn. Er … you wouldn’t happen to … I mean, have you seen the cat?”
Harkins’s eyes widened as he saw that the grille had been taken off the air vent and was lying on the floor. No matter how many times he fixed it back, Pinn always took it off again, complaining that it made the room stuffy. It also allowed Slag to creep into the room and suffocate Harkins, which was part of the fun.
“You took the grille off,” Harkins accused.
“Yeah,” said Pinn.
Harkins’s lip quivered. A determined look crept into his gaze. Pinn could see him visibly plucking up his courage. Allsoul’s balls, was the twitchy old freak actually going to try to stand up to him?
“Now, you listen!” Harkins said sternly. “I’ve had enough of this! This is my room as much as yours, and I—”
“Piss off, Harkins, I’m thinking,” Pinn snapped.
Harkins flinched at the tone of his voice and scurried out. Pinn sighed, settled himself back on his bunk, and stared at the ceiling again.
Lisinda. Sweetheart. What are you trying to say to me?
JEZ CLAMBERED UP THE ladder to the upper gantry of the engine room, trying not to spill the mug of coffee in her hand. The engine assembly was quiet, but it still radiated a faint warmth. A sleeping monster of pipes and black iron.
Silo had a panel off and was poking around with a screwdriver. She squatted down next to him and put the coffee by his side.
“Made it just short of lethal, the way you like it.”
He grunted in thanks and kept poking.
“How’s it going?” she asked, trying to peer past him.
“Same as before,” he said. “Can’t do nothin’ without the parts. She could hold up for weeks. She could give out any minute. No tellin’.” He found something loose and tightened it. “You thought about what I said?”
Jez remembered their surprising conversation in the rainforest of Kurg. “I have. I am.”
“Talked to Crake?”
“Not yet,” she said. It seemed hard to find the right moment. “You know he hasn’t had a drink since last night?”
“He tell you that?”
“I can smell it on him.”
“Huh.”
Sensing that nothing else would be forthcoming, Jez ducked away and headed back down the ladder. The truth was, she’d been thinking a lot about Crake of late. She was becoming more and more convinced that he was the only one who could help her. Who better to deal with a daemon than a daemonist?
But it wasn’t quite as simple as just walking up and asking. There had always been a distance between them. Crake seemed to resent her a little for being the one he’d confessed his crime to. Jez, for her part, had found it hard to entirely forgive him for what he’d done. Then there had been the drinking and his gradual deterioration of late. He’d become bitter and unapproachable.
Jez was never the kind who was comfortable opening up to others. She was afraid they might one day use her vulnerabilities against her. And she was still afraid of what would happen if she admitted the whole truth about her condition. What if Crake reacted with fear and panic? What if he felt he had to tell the Cap’n? No matter how much the crew liked her or how useful she was, having a Mane on board would make anyone nervous. She could be shunned and ejected from the Ketty Jay, and she couldn’t face that. She couldn’t go back to that life of wandering, moving from crew to crew, never putting down roots.
But she had a daemon inside her. And the longer it stayed, the more power it would have over her. Sooner or later she’d be forced to take action. Even if it cost her her place on the Ketty Jay.
She went out into the passageway. She could see Malvery through the open door of the infirmary, asleep on the surgical table, snoring. Ahead of her, Harkins was stalking down the corridor on tiptoe, a butterfly net in his hand. He