The Deerslayer (Barnes & Noble Classics) - James Fenimore Cooper [213]
“I do not brighten up, and will not take offense,” said Judith, struggling to repress her indignation, in a way she had never found it necessary to exert before. “There is a reason why I should not, cannot, ever be your wife, Hurry, that you seem to overlook, and which it is my duty now to tell you, as plainly as you have asked me to consent to become so. I do not, and I am certain that I never shall love you well enough to marry you. No man can wish for a wife who does not prefer him to all other men; and when I tell you this frankly, I suppose you yourself will thank me for my sincerity”
“0 Judith, them flaunting, gay, scarlet-coated officers of the garrisons have done all this mischief!”
“Hush, March; do not calumniate a daughter over her mother’s grave. Do not, when I only wish to treat you fairly, give me reason to call for evil on your head, in bitterness of heart! Do not forget that I am a woman, and that you are a man; and that I have neither father nor brother to revenge your words.”
“Well, there is something in the last, and I’ll say no more. Take time, Judith, and think better on this.”
“I want no time; my mind has long been made up, and I have only waited for you to speak plainly, to answer plainly. We now understand each other, and there is no use in saying any more.”
The impetuous earnestness of the girl awed the young man, for never before had he seen her so serious and determined. In most of their previous interviews she had met his advances with evasion or sarcasm ; but these Hurry had mistaken for female coquetry, and had supposed might easily be converted into consent. The struggle had been with himself, about offering; nor had he ever seriously believed it possible that Judith would refuse to become the wife of the handsomest man on all that frontier. Now that the refusal came, and that in terms so decided as to put all caviling out of the question, if not absolutely dumbfounded, he was so much mortified and surprised as to feel no wish to attempt to change her resolution.
“The Glimmerglass has now no great call for me,” he exclaimed, after a minute’s silence. “Old Tom is gone; the Hurons are as plenty on shore as pigeons in the woods, and altogether, it is getting to be an onsuitable place.”
“Then leave it. You see it surrounded by dangers, and there is no reason why you should risk your life for others. Nor do I know that you can be of any service to us. Go tonight; we’ll never accuse you of having done anything forgetful or unmanly.”
“If I do go, ’twill be with a heavy heart on your account, Judith; I would rather take you with me.”
“That is not to be spoken of any longer, March; but I will land you in one of the canoes, as soon as it is dark, and you can strike a trail for the nearest garrison. When you reach the fort, if you send a party-”
Judith smothered the words, for she felt that it was humiliating to be thus exposing herself to the comments and reflections of one who was not disposed to view her conduct in connection with all in these garrisons with an eye of favor. Hurry, however, caught the idea; and, without perverting it, as the girl dreaded, he answered to the purpose.
“I understand what you would say, and why you don’t say it,” he replied. “If I get safe to the fort, a party shall start on the trail of these vagabonds, and I’ll come with it myself; for I should like to see you and Hetty in a place of safety, before we part forever.”
“Ah, Harry March, had you always spoken thus, felt thus, my feelings towards you might have been different!”
“Is it too late, now, Judith? I’m rough, and a woodsman; but we all change under different treatment from what we have been used to.”
“It is too late, March. I can never feel towards you, or any other man but one, as you would wish to have me. There, I’ve said enough, surely, and you will question me no further. As soon as it is dark, I or the Delaware will put you on the shore; you will make the best of your way to the Mohawk and the nearest garrison, and send all you can to our assistance. And, Hurry,