The Dharma Bums - Jack Kerouac [32]
“That’s the story of my life rich or poor and mostly poor and truly poor.” We went in the bar, which was a roadhouse all done up in the upcountry mountain style, like a Swiss chalet, with moose heads and designs of deer on the booths and the people in the bar itself an advertisement for the hunting season but all of them loaded, a weaving mass of shadows at the dim bar as we walked in and sat at three stools and ordered the port. The port was a strange request in the whisky country of hunters but the bartender rousted up an odd bottle of Christian Brothers port and poured us two shots in wide wineglasses (Morley a teetotaler actually) and Japhy and I drank and felt it fine.
“Ah,” said Japhy warming up to his wine and midnight, “soon I’m going back north to visit my childhood wet woods and cloudy mountains and old bitter intellectual friends and old drunken logger friends, by God, Ray you ain’t lived till you been up there with me, or without. And then I’m going to Japan and walk all over that hilly country finding ancient little temples hidden and forgotten in the mountains and old sages a hundred and nine years old praying to Kwannon in huts and meditating so much that when they come out of meditation they laugh at everything that moves. But that don’t mean I don’t love America, by God, though I hate these damn hunters, all they wanta do is level a gun at a helpless sentient being and murder it, for every sentient being or living creature these actual pricks kill they will be reborn a thousand times to suffer the horrors of samsara and damn good for ’em too.”
“Hear, that, Morley, Henry, what you think?”
“My Buddhism is nothing but a mild unhappy interest in some of the pictures they’ve drawn though I must say sometimes Cacoethes strikes a nutty note of Buddhism in his mountainclimbing poems though I’m not much interested in the belief part of it.” In fact it didn’t make a goddamn much of a difference to him. “I’m neutral,” said he, laughing happily with a kind of an eager slaking leer, and Japhy yelled:
“Neutral is what Buddishm is!”
“Well, that port’ll make you have to swear off yogurt. You know I am a fortiori disappointed because there’s no Benedictine or Trappist wine, only Christian Brothers holy waters and spirits around here. Not that I feel very expansive about being here in this curious bar anyway, it looks like the home-plate for Ciardi and Bread Loaf writers, Armenian grocers all of ’em, well-meaning awkward Protestants who are on a group excursion for a binge and want to but don’t understand how to insert the contraception. These people must be assholes,” he added in sudden straight revelation. “The milk around here must be fine but more cows than people. This must be a different race of Anglos up here, I don’t particularly warm up to their appearance. The fast kids around here must go thirty-four miles. Well, Japhy,” said he, concluding, “if you ever get an official job I hope you get a Brooks Brothers suit…hope you don’t wind up in artsfartsy parties where it would—Say,” as some girls walked in, “young hunters…must be why the baby wards are open all year.”
But the hunters didn’t like us to be huddled there talking close and friendly in low voices about sundry personal topics and joined us and pretty soon it was a long funny harangue up and down the oval bar about deer in the locality, where to go climb, what do do, and when they heard we were out in this country not to kill animals but just to climb mountains they took us to be hopeless eccentrics and left us alone. Japhy and I had two wines and felt fine and went back in the car with Morley and we drove away, higher and higher, the trees taller, the air colder, climbing, till finally it was almost two o’clock in the morning and they said we had a long way to go yet to Bridgeport and the foot of the trail so we might as well sleep out in these woods in our sleeping bags and call it a day.
“We’ll get up at dawn and take off. Meanwhile we have this good brown bread and cheese too,” said Japhy producing it, brown bread and