The Empire Trilogy - J. G. Farrell [371]
When he had finished speaking the Collector hesitated for a moment on the stairs, looking down at the tired and gaunt faces below him. Earlier he had heard that a young clerk from the Post Office had shot himself while lying in bed...he had left a young widow, to whom he had been married in Calcutta during the previous cold season; this act of despair had moved him more than any other of the many deaths he had witnessed since the beginning of the siege; it was perhaps the fact that the young man had been lying in bed when he had shot himself that the Collector found so sad. Such hopelessness! It was terrifying. “It was my fault. I should have been able to give him something to hope for,” he thought with a sigh, as he descended the half dozen stairs and went to kneel beside Miriam on the stone flags.
“The Lord our God is one Lord: them that serve other gods, God shall judge.”
“Lord have mercy upon us,” muttered the congregation of skeletons.
“Idolaters and all them that worship God’s creatures, God shall judge.”
“Amen. Lord have mercy upon us.”
“The Lord’s day is holy; them that profane it, God shall judge.”
The Collectors lips moved but his mind had already wandered away, besieged by practical questions...how would they manage for privies with so many people in the banqueting hall, assuming that they were driven out of the Residency? Would there be enough water? He must try and have a moment alone with each of his children before tomorrow morning. It was his duty. Besides, he might have no other chance to tell them that he loved them; Miriam, too. He had grown fond of her in the last few days. He would have liked to have put a hand on her shoulder now to comfort her. But even as this thought entered his mind the Padre’s voice came promptly to reprimand him: “Adulterers and fornicators and all unclean persons, God shall judge.”
“Amen. Lord have mercy upon us,” said the Collector heavily, making it sound more like a command than a supplication. But would it not have been better, he mused, to have left the banqueting hall and defended the Residency where there was a well? No, not so...he had taken the right decision. The Residency was vulnerable. Even if shot to pieces the commanding position of the banqueting hall would still make it defensible. And how were the sepoys faring? They must know by now whether a relief force was coming near. Perhaps that was why they were determined to attack now without further delay? What a shame it all is, even so! What a waste of all the good work that has been done in India! Still, there must be some way of destroying their magazine.
“Covetous persons and extortioners and them that grind the faces of the poor, God shall judge.”
“Amen. Lord have mercy upon us, and lay not these sins to our charge.”
The Padre had asked the Collector if he might preach a sermon. The Collector had agreed provided that it was brief, for there remained so much to be done before morning. As text the Padre had chosen: “I see that all things come to an end, but thy commandment is exceeding broad.” The Padre had become very weak since the end of the rains. His face had grown so thin that as he spoke you could plainly see the elaborate machinery of his jaw setting to work with all its strings, sockets and pulleys. Those at the back of the gathering now had to ask each other in whispers what the text had been, for they had