The Flame Alphabet - Ben Marcus [127]
The story puts it differently, of course. Stories always do.
More stories followed from the great loudspeaker, filling the woods with sound. I spent some of the afternoon enjoying the broadcast of tales down beyond the murmur line. The smoke I’d inhaled was a mostly thorough shield, though with certain words I felt mild convulsions, suggesting a partial immunity, which would need to be addressed.
If the tales themselves did not please me, the voice they arrived in did, and it was this that I wanted to hear more of. I’d not been spoken to in years and the effect was luscious. I had taken this pleasure for granted. The stories were read by a child with a scratchy voice. They’d found a child who herself did not seem to understand the stories, because always at the moment of crisis, of conflict, the child’s voice only became sweeter, as if she were entirely innocent of what she was reading. What an enormous gift that would be.
Or else to this girl these terrible moments were the good parts, the ones that gave her a thrill.
Finally my shivers came on more strongly, the stories cutting into my head with a cold pain, and my daylight began to spoil.
I walked home to see how my subject was doing. I’d need more of his breath in order to generate a true inhibitor, and I’d want to diversify beyond this boy. I’d need to establish that this extraction was not a fluke. It was the air of children I wanted, a fine-grained powder that rode out on their breath and offered to us a transformative medicine.
The discovery, in the end, was a simple one. I should have made it months ago. From hyperventilation of a child—ideally, one later learned, a child in agitated fright, surging with adrenaline—comes a residue in the lungs. Coughed up out of fear. And when this residue is refined of impurities, enforced with certain salts, then subjected to heat, it forms the foundation of our immunity. Child’s Play. It lets the words back in, if briefly.
Whether such a reversal should be sanctioned is another matter.
55
Once I’d perfected the serum, and could endure without sickness the full range of Aesop’s broadcasts below the murmur line, I sat down in the hut with the cherished contraband I’d smuggled from Forsythe: the voice tapes of my daughter, Esther.
A language archive of the girl. Paper and tapes, a broad syllabus of topics, a spectrum of moods. Our viral girl, fourteen years old, singing, laughing, yelling, whispering, arguing, speaking sotto voce, making up words. Reciting letters, numbers, crying out in pain.
I do not tire of these tapes. I will not. I have done the awful math enough times to determine that my inhibitor work is worth it to hear this girl speak. The work of gathering immunity, and the cost of such. Etcetera, fucking etcetera. The exchange, I believe, is fair.
It makes it safe to hear the girl’s voice, and for that I would do anything.
I am ready to debate this matter. My arguments are strong. This is the last of my daughter’s voice. You will be at a sad disadvantage if you challenge me on this point.
56
Last night I was stranded in darkness, out waiting for a child who never came. If one had appeared, and if I had secured possession, I would have led him to the extraction shed, applied the bottle to his face, and produced, if I could, a scenario that would lead to fright, which would lead to adrenaline, and, if I was lucky, my subject would hyperventilate, in those fast rabbit breaths, enough for me to collect a thimble of his powder.
A fairly standard bit of smallwork. I’d burn it down and bottle the smoke, which I could gust over Esther as she lay prone in the bed. If I’d done my job properly, the smoke would sink over her and she’d have no choice but to breathe it in.
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