The Ginger Man - J. P. Donleavy [19]
And Marion clutching the hem of her dress and drawing it over her shifting shoulders. She said there was only thirty shillings left.
"Our good accents and manners will see us right. Didn't you know, Marion, they can't put Protestants in jail?"
"You've no responsibility and to have my child raised among a lot of savage Irish and be branded with a brogue for the rest of her life. Pass me my cream, please"
Sebastian passing the cream, smiling and waving his feet from the edge of the bed. Letting his body fall with a squeal of springs and looking at the patches of pink in the ceiling. Marion a bit upset and confused. Difficult for hen She was breaking. Isn't as strong as me, led a sheltered life. Maybe shouldn't have married me. Matter, all of it, of time. Pumping it around and around and around, air in, air out and then it all goes like the shutters of a collapsing house. Starts and ends in antiseptic smell. Like to feel the end would be like closing leaves of honeysuckle, pressing out a last fragrance in the night but that only happens to holy men. Find them in the morning with a smile across the lips and bury them in plain boxes. But I want a rich tomb of Vermont marble in Woodlawn Cemetery, with automatic sprinkler and evergreens. If they get you in the medical school they hang you up by the ears. Never leave me unclaimed, I beg of you. Don't hang me all swollen, knees pressing the red nates of others where they come in to see if I'm fat or lean and all of us stabbed to death on the Bowery. Kill you in the tenement streets and cover you in flowers and put in the juice. By God, you hulking idiots, keep the juice away from me. Because I'm a mortician and too busy to die.
"'Marion, do you ever think of death?"
"No."
"Marion, do you ever think you're going to die?"
"I say, Sebastian, would you mind awfully stopping that sort of talk. You're in that nasty mood."
"Not at all."
"You are. Coming up here every morning to watch the funerals of these wretched people. Dreadful and sordid. I think you get a perverse pleasure out of it."
"Beyond this vale of tears, there is a life above, unmeasured by the flight of years and all that life is love."
"You think you're frightening me with these sinister airs of yours. I find them only boring and they tend to make you repulsive"
"What?"
"Yes, they do"
"For the love of Jesus, look at me. Look at my eyes. Go ahead, come on"
"I don't want to look in your eyes"
"Honest globes they are"
"You can't talk seriously about anything"
"I just asked you about death. Want to know how you feel, really get to know you. Or maybe you think this is forever"
"Rubbish. You think it's forever, I know you do. You're not as flippant as this in the mornings, I notice."
"Takes me a few hours to adapt. Snap out of the dream."
"And you scream."
"What?"
"You were yelling a few nights ago, how do I get out of this. And another time you were screaming, what's that white thing in the corner, take it away."
Dangerfield holding his belly, laughing on the squeaking springs.
"You can laugh, but I think there's something serious at the root of it."
"What's at the root? Can't you see I'm mad. Can't you see? Look. See. Madness. E. I'm mad."
Sebastian ogled and wagged his tongue.
"Stop it. Always willing to clown but never to do anything useful."
Dangerfield watched from the bed as she flexed her long arms behind her back and her breasts fell from the cups of her brassiere, tan nipples hardening in the cold air. Red line on her shoulder left by the strap. Stepping wearily out of her underpants, facing the mirror and rubbing white cream into her hands and face. Little brown strands growing round the nipples. You've often said, Marion, about giving it the wax treatment but I like them that way after all.
Sebastian quietly stepping from the bed approaching the naked body. Pressing his fists against her buttocks and she pushes his hands away.
"I don't like you touching me there"
And kissing her on the back of the neck. Wet the