The Ginger Man - J. P. Donleavy [77]
"Things crop up all the time, don't they, Miss Frost? Unpleasant things. But we'll see better days. Every cloud, you know, lined with lead. I like you, Miss Frost."
"I like you too."
The biscuits were passed to Sebastian. He took four. Miss Frost stirring in the sugar. They preoccupied their eyes. O the eyes.
Yes eyes.
No eyes.
What things
They see.
Some say happiness
Others
Misery.
O the eyes.
Oaye,
The eyes.
"Miss Frost?"
"Yes?"
"I'm going to be quite honest, as I know I can be with you, without being misunderstood"
"Yes, Mr. Dangerfield?"
"Miss Frost, may I sleep in your bedroom?"
There was a pause. Miss Frost's face was touched with a bit of redness. Her eyes gone down to the coffee. Sebastian continuing in the voice of good fellowship, a businesslike sound.
"I don't want you to misunderstand me, Miss Frost. I'll put my mattress on your floor. It's a rather peculiar thing with me. Having had so much upset I don't think I could bear to sleep alone. Would you mind awfully? I know it must seem a bit irregular, but dash it all, I may as well be honest."
"O no, Mr. Dangerfield, it isn't irregular at all. I know how you must feel. I don't mind. I understand what you mean."
"It's really very kind of you, Miss Frost. To take it like this."
"But are you sure you won't be uncomfortable? I don't mind sleeping on the floor, I'm used to it. I did a lot of it in the land army."
"Heh, heh, not a bit. The mattress is absolutely perfect It's just that I hope I'm not imposing."
"You're not imposing, Mr. Dangerfield."
"I'm enjoying your coffee. Very good."
"I'm glad. I make it in a jug."
"Proper way."
"Yes."
"This has been a most pleasant evening for me, Miss frost"
"I enjoyed it too."
"I'm glad you did"
"So many people look down on a woman who goes into a public house."
"Old fashioned, Miss Frost"
"I agree."
Miss Frost cleared away. Ran water. Hear the sound of cleanliness in there. Nothing like not facing grease slimed dishes of a morning. I'm in here getting my mattress. It's gray, striped, and a wet mass. Gently now, on the floor. I've got to have a blanket Can't let Miss frost see these dirty sheets—it wouldn't do. Let's go, through the door, get this chair out of the way before I let it have it Give it the treatment Like Skully's genuine antiques. Put back Miss frost's scarf. Fold my trousers. Must have everything neat My underwear is a little tattered. Whether to sleep naked or have the modesty of these torn undergarments? Modesty at all costs. These are the things that make the marriage happy. Meals on time, sugar, butter, and salt on the table. Socks darned and go to the drawer and find a dean shirt. Miss frost was right in there with those dishes. No fuss. No excuses. Fine person. Am I smelling ? Sniff a pit Little musty. Can't have everything.
Get this blanket around now, cover up any sign of scruffiness. Miss Frost's room has some soul. Personality. Call it lived in. Perhaps I ought to appear asleep? No. None of these sneaky pretences. Lie here, forthright, honest and awake.
Miss frost came into the room.
"Are you sure you're comfortable there, Mr. Danger-field?"
"Quite sure. Surprisingly comfortable."
"I'll just get some of my things."
Miss Frost took her dressing gown from behind the door and a green, cellophane bag from the dresser. She went to the bathroom. Running water. Door shuts. I face a fateful week. Week of constant Mondays. I think I will set sail of a Friday. And I must play this game of not being seen, perfectly.
Miss Frost comes back.
"I'll turn off the light, Mr. Dangerfield. I hope you're all right there"
"Blissful. I know this is a dreadful inconvenience for you, Miss Frost I want you to know I really appreciate it. I have till now counted my friends on a hand of amputated fingers."
"O Mr. Dangerfield."
Light went off. She stood at the foot of her bed, taking off her robe. I shouldn't be straining my eyes to see as much as I can. I wouldn't want her to notice. Got on green pajamas. From what