The Good Soldier_ A Tale of Passion - Ford Madox Ford [121]
The punkah swished in the darkened room; Leonora lay exhausted and motionless in her cane lounge; neither of them stirred. They were both at that time very ill in indefinite ways.
And then Leonora said:
‘Yes. I promised it to Charlie Maidan this afternoon. I have offered to pay her ex’s144 myself.’
Edward just saved himself from saying: ‘Good God!’ You see, he had not the least idea of what Leonora knew – about Maisie, about Mrs Basil, even about La Dolciquita. It was a pretty enigmatic situation for him. It struck him that Leonora must be intending to manage his loves as she managed his money affairs and it made her more hateful to him – and more worthy of respect.
Leonora, at any rate, had managed his money to some purpose. She had spoken to him, a week before, for the first time in several years – about money. She had made twenty-two thousand pounds out of the Bramshaw land and seven by the letting of Bramshaw furnished. By fortunate investments – in which Edward had helped her – she had made another six or seven thousand that might well become more. The mortgages were all paid off, so that, except for the departure of the two Vandykes and the silver, they were as well off as they had been before the Dolciquita had acted the locust. It was Leonora’s great achievement. She laid the figures before Edward, who maintained an unbroken silence.
‘I propose,’ she said, ‘that you should resign from the Army and that we should go back to Bramshaw. We are both too ill to stay here any longer.’
Edward said nothing at all.
‘This,’ Leonora continued passionlessly, ‘is the great day of my life.’ Edward said:
‘You have managed the job amazingly. You are a wonderful woman.’ He was thinking that if they went back to Bramshaw they would leave Maisie Maidan behind. That thought occupied him exclusively. They must, undoubtedly, return to Bramshaw; there could be no doubt that Leonora was too ill to stay in that place. She said:
‘You understand that the management of the whole of the expenditure of the income will be in your hands. There will be five thousand a year.’
She thought that he cared very much about the expenditure of an income of five thousand a year and that the fact that she had done so much for him would rouse in him some affection for her. But he was thinking exclusively of Maisie Maidan – of Maisie, thousands of miles away from him. He was seeing the mountains between them – blue mountains and the sea and sunlit plains. He said:
‘That is very generous of you.’ And she did not know whether that were praise or a sneer. That had been a week before. And all that week he had passed in an increasing agony at the thought that those mountains, that sea, and those sunlit plains would be between him and Maisie Maidan. That thought shook him in the burning nights: the sweat poured from him and he trembled with cold, in the burning noons – at that thought. He had no minute’s rest; his bowels turned round and round within him: his tongue was perpetually dry and it seemed to him that the breath between his teeth was like air from a pest-house.
He gave no thought to Leonora at all; he had sent in his papers.145 They were to leave in a month. It seemed to him to be his duty to leave that place and to go away, to support Leonora. He did his duty.
It was horrible, in their relationship at that time, that whatever she did caused him to hate her. He hated her when he found that she proposed to set him up as the Lord of Bramshaw again – as a sort of dummy lord, in swaddling clothes. He imagined that she had done this in order to separate him from Maisie Maidan. Hatred hung in all the heavy nights and filled the shadowy corners of the room. So when he heard that she had offered to the Maidan