The Habitation of the Blessed - Catherynne M. Valente [99]
“I can hear my grandfather on the other side of the Wall,” said Yat. She twisted her streaked hands. “He misses me.”
“They stay here, close to the Wall, even now that new children have been born in the more usual fashion, like Yat, waiting for the day when the Gate will open and they will be one tribe again. But you mustn’t believe her,” the peacock sighed. “She can’t hear her grandfather. Not even sound breeches the Wall. The Azenach on the other side do not even know this colony exists.”
“Don’t tell lies!” Yat shouted, leaping up. “I can hear him! I can! He says: Soon, soon. And the Wall gets hot.”
I shivered. I did not think it was her grandfather, either.
“Oh, Yat, my darling, you must stay away from the Gates. No good will come of you listening to whispers leaking through, and your grandfather does not live in that country alone.”
“What do you know? You’ve never eaten anyone at all!” The child stormed off, and Ghayth made his apologies. The older Azenach held her while she wept dramatically. They all glared at us across the black road. Silently, the Azenach began to light the torches along the way, and while they did it, Yat sucked her thumb. Ghayth stretched his short legs.
“It was good, though, to tell a true tale again! You will stay, won’t you? Tomorrow the young persons’ chorus will perform my Romaunce of Twelve Infidels and an Exquisite Rhinoceros. I don’t mean to boast, but I think the motifs are quite adequate. I have nearly mastered the art of the denouement.”
“No,” whispered Hajji. “We have to go.”
Ghayth looked at her suddenly, and the little panoti blanched, if such a thing were possible for a creature the color of the snow.
“Don’t look at me,” she said desperately. “Stop it.”
“But you’re her,” he said wonderingly. “You’re her.”
“Please!” she wailed. “I don’t want to be!”
“If your headless friend here saw fit to shred the veil of modesty and drag me out, I don’t see why you should get to stay demure,” he sniffed. But he turned to me, unable to conceal his pride: “You see, I am getting the flowery speech down to a science. I can do it for fifteen minutes at a stretch.”
The panoti disengaged herself from John and crept up to Ghayth. She put her hands on his avian face, where he had large, handsome white circles under his eyes.
“Please,” she whispered, and tears filled up her eyes. “Let me be Hajji. Let me stay Hajji.”
THE CONFESSIONS OF HIOB VON LUZERN, 1699
I have tried to re-compose the text as I imagine it to be—that is part of the work of a scribe, to gracefully transmit the document as though no error ever occurred, as though no single letter were in doubt. But if my Brothers could read this as I saw it in that cell with the bold sunlight seeking purchase on the walls, their heart would fall and fail.
The Lord my God knows what those pages said. I will never know. Why did You not send me an angel to dictate