The Hound of Death - Agatha Christie [73]
Like a flash it came to him that that which bound him so remorselessly was the thing he had worshipped and prized above all others–wealth! He had thought it the strongest thing on earth, and now, wrapped round by its golden strength, he saw the truth of his words. It was his money that held him in bondage…
But was it? Was that really it? Was there a deeper and more pointed truth that he had not seen? Was it the money or was it his own love of the money? He was bound in fetters of his own making; not wealth itself, but love of wealth was the chain.
He knew now clearly the two forces that were tearing at him, the warm composite strength of materialism that enclosed and surrounded him, and, opposed to it, the clear imperative call–he named it to himself the Call of the Wings.
And while the one fought and clung the other scorned war and would not stoop to struggle. It only called–called unceasingly…He heard it so clearly that it almost spoke in words.
‘You cannot make terms with me,’ it seemed to say.
‘For I am above all other things. If you follow my call you must give up all else and cut away the forces that hold you. For only the Free shall follow where I lead…’
‘I can’t,’ cried Hamer. ‘I can’t…’
A few people turned to look at the big man who sat talking to himself.
So sacrifice was being asked of him, the sacrifice of that which was most dear to him, that which was part of himself.
Part of himself–he remembered the man without legs…
IV
‘What in the name of Fortune brings you here?’ asked Borrow.
Indeed the east-end mission was an unfamiliar background to Hamer.
‘I’ve listened to a good many sermons,’ said the millionaire, ‘all saying what could be done if you people had funds. I’ve come to tell you this: you can have funds.’
‘Very good of you,’ answered Borrow, with some surprise. ‘A big subscription, eh?’
Hamer smiled dryly. ‘I should say so. Just every penny I’ve got.’
‘What?’
Hamer rapped out details in a brisk businesslike manner. Borrow’s head was whirling.
‘You–you mean to say that you’re making over your entire fortune to be devoted to the relief of the poor in the East End with myself appointed as trustee?’
‘That’s it.’
‘But why–why?’
‘I can’t explain,’ said Hamer slowly. ‘Remember our talk about visions last February? Well, a vision has got hold of me.’
‘It’s splendid!’ Borrow leaned forward, his eyes gleaming.
‘There’s nothing particularly splendid about it,’ said Hamer grimly. ‘I don’t care a button about poverty in the East End. All they want is grit! I was poor enough–and I got out of it. But I’ve got to get rid of the money, and these tom-fool societies shan’t get hold of it. You’re a man I can trust. Feed bodies or souls with it–preferably the former. I’ve been hungry, but you can do as you like.’
‘There’s never been such a thing known,’ stammered Borrow.
‘The whole thing’s done and finished with,’ continued Hamer. ‘The lawyers have fixed it up at last, and I’ve signed everything. I can tell you I’ve been busy this last fortnight. It’s almost as difficult getting rid of a fortune as making one.’
‘But you–you’ve kept something?’
‘Not a penny,’ said Hamer cheerfully. ‘At least–that’s not quite true. I’ve just twopence in my pocket.’ He laughed.
He said goodbye to his bewildered friend, and walked out of the mission into the narrow evil-smelling streets. The words he had said so gaily just now came back to him with an aching sense of loss. ‘Not a penny!’ Of all his vast wealth he had kept nothing. He was afraid now–afraid of poverty and hunger and cold. Sacrifice had no sweetness for him.
Yet behind it all he was conscious that the weight and menace of things had lifted, he was no longer oppressed and bound down. The severing of the chain had seared and torn him, but the vision of freedom was there to strengthen him. His material needs might dim the Call, but they could not deaden it, for he knew it to be a thing of immortality that could not die.