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Up near the front of the crowd was Jamison Clarke. He was tall, thin, and the only red-haired, green-eyed black man I’ve ever met. He nodded at me across the grave. I nodded back.

We were all here; the animators of Animators, Incorporated. Bert and Mary, our daytime secretary, were holding down the fort. I hoped Bert didn’t book us in anything we couldn’t handle. Or would refuse to handle. He did that if you didn’t watch him.

The sun slapped my back like a hot metal hand. The men kept pulling at their ties and high collars. The smell of chrysanthemums was thick like wax at the back of my throat. No one ever gives you football mums unless you die. Carnations, roses, snapdragons, they all have happier lives, but mums, and glads—they’re the funeral flowers. At least the tall spires of gladiolus had no scent.

A woman sat in the front line of chairs under the canopy. She was leaning over her knees like a broken doll. Her sobs were loud enough to drown out the words of the priest. Only his quiet, soothing rhythm reached me as I stood near the back.

Two small children were gripping the hands of an older man. Grampa? The children were pale, hollow-eyed. Fear vied with tears on their faces. They watched their mother break down completely, useless to them. Her grief was more important than theirs. Her loss greater. Bullshit.

My own mother had died when I was eight. You never really filled in the hole. It was like a piece of you gone missing. An ache that never quite goes away. You deal with it. You go on, but it’s there.

A man sat beside her, rubbing her back in endless circles. His hair was nearly black, cut short and neat. Broad-shouldered. From the back he looked eerily like Peter Burke. Ghosts in sunlight.

The cemetery was dotted with trees. The shade rustled and flickered pale grey in the sunlight. On the other side of the gravel driveway that twined through the cemetery were two men. They stood quietly, waiting. Grave diggers. Waiting to finish the job.

I looked back at the coffin under its blanket of pink carnations. There was a bulky mound just behind it, covered in bright green fake grass. Underneath was the fresh dug earth waiting to go back in the hole.

Mustn’t let the loved ones think about red-clay soil pouring down on the gleaming coffin. Clods of dirt hitting the wood, covering your husband, father. Trapping them forever inside a lead-lined box. A good coffin will keep the water and worms out, but it doesn’t stop decay.

I knew what would be happening to Peter Burke’s body. Cover it in satin, wrap a tie round its neck, rouge the cheeks, close the eyes; it’s still a corpse.

The funeral ended while I wasn’t looking. The people rose gratefully in one mass movement. The dark-haired man helped the grieving widow to stand. She nearly fell. Another man rushed forward and supported her other side. She sagged between them, feet dragging on the ground.

She looked back over her shoulder, head almost lolling on her neck. She screamed, loud and ragged, then flung herself on the coffin. The woman collapsed against the flowers, digging at the wood. Fingers scrambling for the locks on the coffin. The ones that held the lid down.

Everyone just froze for a moment, staring. I saw the two children through the crowd still standing, wide-eyed. Shit. “Stop her,” I said it too loud. People turned to stare. I didn’t care.

I pushed my way through the vanishing crowd and the aisles of chairs. The dark-haired man was holding the widow’s hands while she screamed and struggled. She had collapsed to the ground, and her black dress had worked up high on her thighs. She was wearing a white slip. Her mascara had run like black blood down her face.

I stood in front of the man and the two children. He was staring at the woman like he would never move again. “Sir,” I said. He didn’t react. “Sir?”

He blinked, staring down at me like I had just appeared in front of him. “Sir, do you really think the children need to see all this?”

“She’s my daughter,” he said. His voice was deep and thick. Drugged or just grief?

“I sympathize,