The Man Who Was Afraid [16]
anything. Another two, three days passed, and it became perfectly clear to him that the crew no longer liked him. He began to feel lonesome on the steamer, and amid the parti-coloured mist of new impressions, still more often there came up before Foma the image of his kind and gentle Aunt Anfisa, with her stories, and smiles, and soft, ringing laughter, which filled the boy's soul with a joyous warmth. He still lived in the world of fairy-tales, but the invisible and pitiless hand of reality was already at work tearing the beautiful, fine web of the wonderful, through which the boy had looked at everything about him. The incident with the machinist and the pilot directed his attention to his surroundings; Foma's eyes became more sharp- sighted. A conscious searchfulness appeared in them and in his questions to his father rang a yearning to understand which threads and springs were managing the deeds of men.
One day a scene took place before him: the sailors were carrying wood, and one of them, the young, curly-haired and gay Yefim, passing the deck of the ship with hand-barrows, said loudly and angrily:
"No, he has no conscience whatever! There was no agreement that I should carry wood. A sailor--well, one's business is clear--but to carry wood into the bargain--thank you! That means for me to take off the skin I have not sold. He is without conscience! He thinks it is clever to sap the life out of us."
The boy heard this grumbling and knew that it was concerning his father. He also noticed that although Yefim was grumbling, he carried more wood on his stretcher than the others, and walked faster than the others. None of the sailors replied to Yefim's grumbling, and even the one who worked with him was silent, only now and then protesting against the earnestness with which Yefim piled up the wood on the stretchers.
"Enough!" he would say, morosely, "you are not loading a horse, are you?"
"And you had better keep quiet. You were put to the cart--cart it and don't kick--and should your blood be sucked--keep quiet again. What can you say?"
Suddenly Ignat appeared, walked up to the sailor and, stopping in front of him, asked sternly:
"What were you talking about?"
"I am talking--I know," replied Yefim, hesitating. "There was no agreement--that I must say nothing."
"And who is going to suck blood?" asked Ignat, stroking his beard.
The sailor understood that he had been caught unawares, and seeing no way out of it, he let the log of wood fall from his hands, rubbed his palms against his pants, and, facing Ignat squarely, said rather boldly:
"And am I not right? Don't you suck it?"
"I?"
"You."
Foma saw that his father swung his hand. A loud blow resounded, and the sailor fell heavily on the wood. He arose immediately and worked on in silence. Blood was trickling from his bruised face on to the white bark of the birch wood; he wiped the blood off his face with the sleeve of his shirt, looked at his sleeve and, heaving a sigh, maintained silence, and when he went past Foma with the hand-harrows, two big, turbid tears were trembling on his face, near the bridge of his nose, and Foma noticed them.
At dinner Foma was pensive and now and then glanced at his father with fear in his eyes.
"Why do you frown?" asked his father, gently.
"Frown?"
"Are you ill, perhaps? Be careful. If there is anything, tell me."
"You are strong," said Foma of a sudden musingly.
"I? That's right. God has favoured me with strength."
"How hard you struck him!" exclaimed the boy in a low voice, lowering his head.
Ignat was about to put a piece of bread with caviar into his mouth, but his hand stopped, held back by his son's exclamation; he looked interrogatively at Foma's drooping head and asked:
"You mean Yefim, don't you?"
"Yes, he was bleeding. And how he walked afterward, how he cried," said the boy in a low voice.
"Mm," roared Ignat, chewing a bite. "Well, are you sorry for him?"
"It's a pity!" said Foma, with tears in his voice.
"Yes. So that's the kind of a fellow you are,"
One day a scene took place before him: the sailors were carrying wood, and one of them, the young, curly-haired and gay Yefim, passing the deck of the ship with hand-barrows, said loudly and angrily:
"No, he has no conscience whatever! There was no agreement that I should carry wood. A sailor--well, one's business is clear--but to carry wood into the bargain--thank you! That means for me to take off the skin I have not sold. He is without conscience! He thinks it is clever to sap the life out of us."
The boy heard this grumbling and knew that it was concerning his father. He also noticed that although Yefim was grumbling, he carried more wood on his stretcher than the others, and walked faster than the others. None of the sailors replied to Yefim's grumbling, and even the one who worked with him was silent, only now and then protesting against the earnestness with which Yefim piled up the wood on the stretchers.
"Enough!" he would say, morosely, "you are not loading a horse, are you?"
"And you had better keep quiet. You were put to the cart--cart it and don't kick--and should your blood be sucked--keep quiet again. What can you say?"
Suddenly Ignat appeared, walked up to the sailor and, stopping in front of him, asked sternly:
"What were you talking about?"
"I am talking--I know," replied Yefim, hesitating. "There was no agreement--that I must say nothing."
"And who is going to suck blood?" asked Ignat, stroking his beard.
The sailor understood that he had been caught unawares, and seeing no way out of it, he let the log of wood fall from his hands, rubbed his palms against his pants, and, facing Ignat squarely, said rather boldly:
"And am I not right? Don't you suck it?"
"I?"
"You."
Foma saw that his father swung his hand. A loud blow resounded, and the sailor fell heavily on the wood. He arose immediately and worked on in silence. Blood was trickling from his bruised face on to the white bark of the birch wood; he wiped the blood off his face with the sleeve of his shirt, looked at his sleeve and, heaving a sigh, maintained silence, and when he went past Foma with the hand-harrows, two big, turbid tears were trembling on his face, near the bridge of his nose, and Foma noticed them.
At dinner Foma was pensive and now and then glanced at his father with fear in his eyes.
"Why do you frown?" asked his father, gently.
"Frown?"
"Are you ill, perhaps? Be careful. If there is anything, tell me."
"You are strong," said Foma of a sudden musingly.
"I? That's right. God has favoured me with strength."
"How hard you struck him!" exclaimed the boy in a low voice, lowering his head.
Ignat was about to put a piece of bread with caviar into his mouth, but his hand stopped, held back by his son's exclamation; he looked interrogatively at Foma's drooping head and asked:
"You mean Yefim, don't you?"
"Yes, he was bleeding. And how he walked afterward, how he cried," said the boy in a low voice.
"Mm," roared Ignat, chewing a bite. "Well, are you sorry for him?"
"It's a pity!" said Foma, with tears in his voice.
"Yes. So that's the kind of a fellow you are,"