The Naughty List Bundle - Kylie Adams [301]
They had just stepped into the backyard when she drew a deep breath and said, “That’s good, because…I want you, too.” She looked up at him, her eyes so pale in the sunlight. “Jordan, I don’t think I’ve ever wanted any man as much as I want you. What…what you did to me the other night? That was wonderful and I loved it. I haven’t been able to think of much else. But I want more than that.” She stared him right in the eyes and whispered, “I want to feel you inside me and I want to watch your face when you come, and I want to hear your voice and hold you. I want that so badly I can’t stand it anymore.”
Jordan sucked in a huge breath of air, but it didn’t help. Just that quickly he had an erection that threatened the seams of his jeans. Every muscle in his body shook.
And then the sound of conversation intruded and he looked around, seeing himself surrounded by family and neighbors. Luckily no one was paying them any attention.
He groaned aloud. Georgia finally admitted to wanting him, and there wasn’t an ounce of privacy to be found. “Sweetheart, you really know how to make a man crazy.”
She stared up at him, her eyes full of questions. And invitation. “It’s fair. You’ve certainly made me nuts.” She reached up and touched his face. “Can I ask you something?”
Jordan put his arm around her and led her to the side of the yard, as far away from the others as he dared to go without drawing a lot of attention. “You can ask me anything, Georgia. Don’t ever forget that.”
Her smile was so sweet and gentle. He loved her mouth. Damn, how he loved her mouth.
“If,” she said, looking uncertain once again, “I didn’t want to be involved with you. If I made it clear that I had no feelings for you at all—”
“Then I’d respect your wishes, even if it killed me.”
She went on tiptoe to give him a quick kiss. “I already knew that. You’re not a man to ever force a woman in any way.”
Jordan laughed at her assumptions. “I’d do my damndest first to convince you.”
“You already have. Done your damndest and convinced me. But you’re such a seducer with that sexy voice—” she touched his mouth with one fingertip “—it wasn’t that hard.”
The way she touched him, how she looked at him, took him to the edge. In a rasp, he said, “Speak for yourself.”
She understood his meaning and glanced down at his fly. “Oh.” Warmth colored her cheekbones, making him nuts, but when he went to kiss her, she said, “Jordan, it was something else I was going to ask.”
“Tell me.”
“If we had no personal relationship, would you still want to see my kids? Or would you suddenly disappear from their lives?”
Jordan didn’t give a damn if everyone in Buckhorn saw him. He cupped her face in his hands and took her mouth in a kiss meant to offer reassurance and so much more. When he lifted away, she clung to him, as unconcerned with their audience as he was. “I love your kids, sweetheart. I’d never do that to them.”
Tears glistened on her lashes. “That’s what I thought.”
Jordan knew what she was getting at. Their own father had walked away, just as his had. For whatever reason, her ex had been able to give up his own two offspring, never knowing if they were all right, if they needed him or not.
But Jordan was different. He’d never before realized exactly how different until that moment. “I used to worry about my father,” he said. “Not about his well-being, but whether or not people would associate me with him. Like your ex-husband, he split after the divorce and no one has seen him since. Not a single phone call, not even a card. If I died, I’m not sure he’d know, or even care.”
Jordan shrugged and admitted, “There’ve been times when I hated him because I felt so ashamed. Not because he wasn’t here, but because my brothers had respectable, honorable, loving fathers and yet my father was a huge mistake.”
His throat felt raw as he told her things he’d never said to another living soul. “I wanted to hold myself to a higher standard, to prove to myself and to everyone else