The Night Circus - Erin Morgenstern [157]
It is not the handful of years committed to Harvard. It is, he thinks, an even greater commitment than inheriting responsibility for the family farm.
He looks from Marco to Celia, and knows from the look in her eyes that she will let him go if he asks to leave, no matter what that might mean for them or for the circus.
He thinks of a litany of questions but none of them truly matter.
He knows his answer already.
His choice was made when he was ten years old, under a different tree, bound up in acorns and dares and a single white glove.
He will always choose the circus.
“I’ll do it,” he says. “I’ll stay. I’ll do whatever it is you need me to do.”
“Thank you, Bailey,” Celia says softly. The words resonating in his ears soothe the last of his nerves.
“Indeed,” Marco says. “I think we should make this official.”
“Do you think that’s absolutely necessary?” Celia asks.
“At this point I’m not about to settle for a verbal contract,” Marco says. Celia frowns for a moment but then nods her consent, and Marco carefully lets go of her hand. She stays steady and her appearance does not waver.
“Do you want me to sign something?” Bailey asks.
“Not exactly,” Marco says. He takes a silver ring from his right hand, it is engraved with something Bailey cannot discern in the light. Marco reaches up to a branch above his head and passes the ring through one of the burning candles until it glows, white and hot.
Bailey wonders whose wish that particular flame might be.
“I made a wish on this tree years ago,” Marco says, as though he knows what Bailey is thinking.
“What did you wish for?” Bailey asks, hoping it is not too forward a question, but Marco does not answer.
Instead, he folds the glowing ring into his palm, and then he offers his hand to Bailey.
Bailey hesitantly reaches out, expecting his fingers to pass through Marco’s hand as easily as they did before.
But instead they stop, and Marco’s hand in his is almost solid. Marco leans forward and whispers into Bailey’s ear.
“I wished for her,” he says.
Then Bailey’s hand begins to hurt. The pain is bright and hot as the ring burns into his skin.
“What are you doing?” he manages to ask when he can gasp for enough air. The pain is sharp and searing, coursing through his entire body, and he is barely able to keep his knees from buckling beneath him.
“Binding,” Marco says. “It’s one of my specialties.”
He releases Bailey’s hand. The pain vanishes instantly but Bailey’s legs continue to tremble.
“Are you all right?” Celia asks.
Bailey nods, looking down at his palm. The ring is gone, but there is a bright red circle burned into his skin. Bailey is certain without having to ask that it will be a scar he carries with him always. He closes his hand and looks back at Marco and Celia.
“Tell me what I need to do now,” he says.
The Second Lighting of the Bonfire
NEW YORK, NOVEMBER 1, 1902
Bailey finds the tiny, book-filled room without much difficulty. The large black raven sitting in the corner blinks at him curiously as he sorts through the contents of the desk.
He flips anxiously through the large leather book until he finds the page with Poppet’s and Widget’s signatures. He tears the page from the binding carefully, removing it completely.
He finds a pen in a drawer and writes his own name across the page as he has been instructed. While the ink dries he gathers up the rest of the things he will need, running through the list over and over in his head so he does not forget anything.
The yarn is easily found, a ball of it sits precariously on a pile of books.
The two cards, one a familiar playing card and the other a tarot card emblazoned with an angel, are amongst the papers on the desk. He tucks these into the front cover of the book.
The doves in the cage above him stir with a soft fluttering of feathers.
The pocket watch on its long silver chain proves most difficult to locate. He finds it on the ground beside the desk, and when he attempts to dust it off a bit he can see the initials H.B. engraved on the back. The watch