The Orphan Master's Son_ A Novel - Adam Johnson [179]
Citizens—what was this poor American Rower saying? We didn’t need a translator to understand she was despondent at the prospect of leaving North Korea, which had become a second home to her. No one needed an English dictionary to feel her anguish at the idea of being torn from a paradise where food and shelter and medical care were free. Citizens—feel her sadness at having to return to a land where doctors chase pregnant women with ultrasounds. Sense her outrage at being sent back to a crime-laden land of materialism and exclusion, where huge populations languish in jail, sprawl urine-soaked in the streets, or babble incoherently about God on the sweatpants-polished pews of megachurches. Think of the guilt she must feel after learning how the Americans, her own people, devastated this great nation during the imperialists’ sneak-attack war. But despair no more, Rower Girl, even this small taste of North Korean compassion and generosity might see you through the dark days of your return to Uncle Sam’s savagery.
I WAS tired when I arrived at Division 42. I hadn’t slept well the night before. My dreams were filled with dark snakes whose hissing sounded like the peasants I’d heard doing intercourse. But why snakes? Why would snakes haunt me so, with their accusing eyes and folded fangs? None of the subjects I put in the autopilot ever visited me in my sleep. In the dream, I had Commander Ga’s cell phone, and on it kept flashing pictures of a smiling wife and happy children. Only it was my wife and my children, the family I’ve always felt I should have had—all I had to do was discover their location and make my way through the snakes to them.
But what did the dream mean? That’s what I couldn’t fathom. If only a book could be written to help the average citizen penetrate and understand a dream’s mysteries. Officially, the government took no position on what occurred while its citizens were asleep, but isn’t something of the dreamer to be found in his dream? And what of the extended open-eyed dream I afforded our subjects when I hooked them up to the autopilot? I’ve sat for hours watching our subjects in this state—the oceany eye sweep, the babyish talk, the groping, the way they were always reaching for something seen with a faraway focus. And then there are the orgasms, which the doctors insist are actually seizures. Either way, something profound takes place inside these people. In the end, all they can remember is the icy mountain peak and the white flower to be found there. Is a destination worth reaching if you can’t recall the journey? I’d say so. Is a new life worth living if you can’t recollect the old one? All the better.
At work, I discovered a couple of guys from Propaganda sniffing around our library, looking for a good story, one they could use to inspire the people, they said.
I wasn’t about to let them near our biographies again.
“We don’t have any good stories,” I told them.
Man, they were slick, with their gold-rimmed teeth and Chinese cologne.
“Any story would do,” one said. “Good or bad, it doesn’t matter.”
“Yeah,” his sidekick added. “We’ll add the inspiration later.”
Last year they swiped the biography of a lady missionary who’d snuck in from the South with a satchel full of Bibles. We were told to find out who she’d given Bibles to and if more like her walked amongst us. She was the one person the Pubyok couldn’t crack, except for Commander Ga, I suppose. Even when I hooked her up to the autopilot, she had the strangest smile on her face. She had a thick set of spectacles that magnified her eyes as they pleasantly roamed the room. Even when the autopilot was in its peak cycle, she hummed a Jesus song and beheld the last room she’d ever see as if it were filled