The Silent Cry - Anne Perry [130]
“Rhys!” she said urgently. “It hasn’t gone away, you know. You are under house arrest. It is just the same as being in a public cell or in Newgate. The only reason you are here, not there, is because you are too ill to move. There will be a trial, and if you are found guilty, they will take you to Newgate, no matter how ill you are. They won’t care, because they will hang you anyway.…” She could not go on. She could not bear it, even though he had not turned back or even opened his eyes. His body was rigid, tears running under his lids and down his cheeks.
“Rhys,” she said softly. “I have to make you realize this is real. You must tell someone the truth to save yourself.”
Again he shook his head.
“Did you kill him?” she whispered.
He shook his head again, very little, but quite unmistakably.
“But you know who did?” she persisted.
He turned back very slowly, meeting her eyes. He lay still for seconds. She could hear the sound of distant feet as a maid crossed the landing.
“Do you?” she said again.
He closed his eyes without answering.
She stood up and went out of the room and down the stairs to the withdrawing room, where Sylvestra was moving aimlessly from one idle task to another. A pile of embroidery yarns sat tangled on a small table, linen bunched up near them. A bowl of winter flowers from the hothouse were half arranged, half simply poked into the water. Several letters lay on a salver on the large semicircular table by the wall; two were opened, the others were not.
Sylvestra swung around as soon as she heard the door.
“How is he?” she asked quickly, then bit her lip as though unsure what she wanted the answer to be. “I simply don’t know what to do. Leighton was my husband. I owe him … everything, not only loyalty but love, respect, decency.” Her brow puckered. “How could it have happened? What … what changed him? And don’t tell me Rhys hasn’t changed … I’ve seen the difference in him and it terrifies me!”
She swung away, her hands clenched in front of her. A less controlled woman would have wept or screamed, thrown something just to release the tension inside herself.
“He never used to be like this, Miss Latterly.” Her voice was tight in her throat, as if she had difficulty making herself speak. “He was willful at times, thoughtless, like most young people, but there was no cruelty in him. I don’t understand it. I thought I was so tired last night I would have slept from exhaustion. I wanted to.” She emphasized it fiercely. “I wanted simply to cease to be able to think or feel anything. But I lay awake for hours. I racked my brain trying to understand what had changed him, why he had become so different, when it had begun to happen. I found no answer. It still makes no sense to me.” She turned back to Hester, her face bleak and desperate. “Why would anyone want to beat those women? Why rape a woman who is willing anyway? Why would anyone do that? It isn’t sane.”
“I don’t understand either,” Hester said candidly. “But obviously it is not appetite, but rather more a desire for power over someone else, a need to hurt and humiliate—” She stopped. Sylvestra was looking at her with amazement, as though she had said something new and almost inconceivable.
“Haven’t you ever wanted to punish, not for justice but for anger?” Hester asked her.
“I … I suppose so,” Sylvestra said slowly. “But that is hardly … yes, I suppose I have.” She stared at Hester curiously. “Are you saying it is the same thing, hideously magnified?”
“I don’t know. I am only trying to imagine.”
The fire settled with a shower of sparks.
“You mean it is not appetite … but … hate?” Sylvestra asked, struggling to understand.
“Perhaps.”
“But why would Rhys hate such women? He doesn’t even know them.”
“Maybe it doesn’t matter who it is. Anyone will do, the weaker, the more vulnerable, the better …”
“Stop it!” Sylvestra took a shuddering breath. “I’m sorry. It is not your fault. I asked you, and now I do not want to hear the answer.” Her hands were twisting around one another. She had scratched herself