The Vampire Armand - Anne Rice [78]
“Ah, that’s my sweet boy, with the honey rolling off his tongue, and the bees that left it there left their sting too.”
Again, he struck me. This time I became dizzy, but I refused to lift my hands to my head. My ear throbbed.
“Proud of yourself, Ivan the Idiot!” I said. “How can I paint when I can’t see or even sit in the chair?”
The priests shouted. They argued amongst one another.
I tried to focus on the small row of earthen jars ready for the yolk and the water. Finally I began to mix the yolk and the water. Best to work and shut them all out. I could hear my Father laugh with satisfaction.
“Now, show them, show them what they mean to wall up alive in a lot of mud.”
“For the love of God,” said the Elder.
“For the love of stupid idiots,” said my Father. “It isn’t enough to have a great painter. You have to have a saint.”
“You do not know what your son is. It was God who guided you to bring him here.”
“It was money,” said my Father. Gasps rose from the priests.
“Don’t lie to them,” I said under my breath. “You know damned good and well it was pride.”
“Yes, pride,” said my Father, “that my son could paint the Face of Christ or His Blessed Mother like a Master! And you, to whom I commit this genius, are too ignorant to see it.”
I began to grind the pigments I needed, the soft brownish-red powder, and then to mix it over and over with the yolk and water until every tiny fragment of pigment was broken up and the paint was smooth and perfectly thin and clear. On to the yellow, and then to the red.
They fought over me. My Father lifted his fist to the Elder, but I didn’t bother to look up. He wouldn’t dare. He kicked my leg in his desperation, sending a cramp through my muscle, but I said nothing. I went on mixing the paint.
One of the priests had come round to my left, and he slipped a clean whitewashed panel of wood in front of me, primed and ready for the holy image.
At last I was ready. I bowed my head. I made the Sign of the Cross in our way, touching my right shoulder first, not my left.
“Dear God, give me the power, give me the vision, give my hands the tutelage which only your love can give!” At once I had the brush with no consciousness of having picked it up, and the brush began to race, tracing out the oval of the Virgin’s face, and then the sloping lines of her shoulders and then the outline of her folded hands.
Now when their gasps came, they were tributes to the painting. My Father laughed in gloating satisfaction.
“Ah, my Andrei, my sharp-tongued, sarcastic, nasty ungrateful little genius of God.”
“Thank you, Father,” I whispered bitingly, right from the middle of my trancelike concentration, as I myself watched the work of the brush in awe. There her hair, cleaving close to the scalp and parted in the middle. I needed no instrument to make the outline of her halo perfectly round.
The priests held the clean brushes for me. One held a clean rag in his hands. I snatched up a brush for the red color which I then mixed with white paste, until it was the appropriate color of flesh.
“Isn’t that a miracle!”
“That’s just the point,” said the Elder between clenched teeth. “It’s a miracle, Brother Ivan, and he will do what God wills.”
“He won’t wall himself up in here, damn you, not as long as I’m alive. He’s coming with me into the wild lands.”
I burst out laughing. “Father,” I said sneering at him. “My place is here.”
“He’s the best shot in the family, and he’s coming with me into the wild lands,” said my Father to the others, who had flown into a flurry of protests and negations all around.
“Why do you give Our Blessed Mother that tear in her eye, Brother Andrei?”
“It’s God who gives her the tear,” said one of the others.
“It is the Mother of All Sorrows. Ah, see the beautiful folds of her cloak.”
“Ah, look, the Christ child!” said my Father, and even his face was reverent. “Ah, poor little baby God, soon to be crucified and die!” His voice was for once subdued and almost tender. “Ah, Andrei, what a gift. Oh, but look, look at the