Things We Didn't Say_ A Novel - Kristina Riggle [45]
Oh, dammit.
I sit down on the other side of the bed, facing away from her, not just because she’s undressing in front of me, but because my stupid penis is springing up like it’s party time.
It’s been a while for Casey and me. A hungry man is not picky about his meal.
And if I’m honest, sex was one way in which Mallory and I were very, very compatible.
I think of the unsexiest things I can imagine. I think about work, that always does the trick at the worst possible times.
But work makes me think of Kate.
“It’s safe now,” Mallory says, chuckling.
Not hardly. I say, without standing up, “Go on downstairs, I’ll get you some blankets for the couch.”
She doesn’t move, and for a moment I’m terrified she’s going to come around to my side of the bed.
Mallory walks out, though, closing the door with a soft click behind her.
I ponder taking a cold shower, but the thought of Casey walking in this room just now seems to have done the job. I wait a few more moments to be sure, then go in search of blankets and a spare pillow.
Where is Casey, anyway? Maybe I should have let her take her phone. I could have called to check on her.
Downstairs, Mallory is mercifully clothed and not very sexy in my bulky gray sweats. She’s tossing back a pill with a glass of water. Headache, she tells me, after she gulps it down. She then stretches out, and it seems rude to just throw a folded blanket at her, so I snap it out and drape it across her.
Mallory stretches her arms and catches me around the neck. I freeze there.
Her hands are clasped snugly. Not tight exactly, but resisting my pull upward.
“Thank you,” she says.
I use my own hands to unclasp her arms, and stand up fully. “For what?”
“For being so kind.”
“What did you think I would do? Make you sleep on the porch? Make you go home and worry alone?”
“How do you know I’d be alone?”
I frown at her. Has she got a boyfriend again? God, that last one . . .
“I’m kidding, Mike. Yes, I am alone at the moment, if you must know.”
“Good night. I’ll wake you if I hear anything.”
I’d already called the police just after Casey left for her walk. They were sending the paperwork to the cell phone and e-mail companies and said they’d call when they knew more.
They were neutral and businesslike, and I know that’s how they should be, professional. In fact, that’s how I always act when I have to report on a tragedy. But now, on the other side of trauma, their coolness is infuriating.
“Mike?”
“Yeah.”
“You ever going to bed?”
I’d forgotten I was just standing there, hovering over Mallory. I give her a halfhearted wave and go upstairs.
Where the hell is Casey? I don’t want her tromping into the house late at night and waking everyone up.
The light is still on in Dylan’s room, from our earlier rummaging.
I should be telling him to turn out the light, close his laptop, and go to bed. I should be talking to him about band practice.
I try to imagine where he is. I picture him someplace relatively safe. Maybe he somehow got a motel room with this girl—with no credit card? Underage? Well, he got on a bus—and he’s warm and sleeping.
I can see him in his bed now as clearly as if he really were there. I can smell Dove soap on his skin. He takes a shower at night because it’s impossible to get in there around Angel in the morning, so every night he smells of Dove. We always used that on him, back to his toddler days when we were doing the scrubbing. It was good for his sensitive skin, which always seemed to break out red with the slightest dryness.
I bet he didn’t take his Eucerin. He’s going to be itchy.
I run lightly down the steps and grab my sneakers out of my gym bag. My hands buzz with unused energy. If I could run to Cleveland now, I would. I’ll drive there right now. When the police find him I’ll be partway there, then, and we won’t have to wait as long to be reunited. If Cleveland doesn’t pan out, I’ll drive to New York by the likeliest route and stop in every hotel lobby and show his picture. I’ll visit every bus station.
Casey and Mallory