Things We Didn't Say_ A Novel - Kristina Riggle [68]
“So running away was not his fault? He just accidentally got on a bus?”
“I mean, there’s got to be more to the story. There always is.”
Oh, I get it. We’re talking about her, now.
“Well, fine, okay, something must be upsetting him. But seriously, he’s the one who did it. It’s not Casey’s fault.”
“Why are you defending her?”
“Why are you attacking her? Why not Dad? He’s the parent.”
“He works all day.”
“So? Dylan’s in school all day.”
“So you like her better than me, is that it?”
Her hands are shaking. I can see it from here. She’s also twisting her rings around, and working her hands like she’s ripping up pieces of paper.
“Hardly. In fact, given what she thinks of me, I’m surprised she can stand to be in the same house.”
This seems to snag my mom out of whatever she was fretting about.
“What do you mean?”
I glance around me quickly, not seeing Casey nearby, but I whisper, just in case. “I mean, I found her journal.”
My mother takes my hand and pulls me to the couch, patting the cushion next to her. “Talk to me,” she says.
Jewel comes up to sit next to me on the couch, after the dishes are all done. Casey hasn’t come down yet, so it’s weirdly like it was before the divorce, and Dad was working late, and it was just us kids and Mom. Dylan’s not here, but he could be practicing up in his room, or doing his homework. He likes to do his homework alone, upstairs. I like to be at the dining room table, so I don’t feel alone. I like to be part of things, and he doesn’t. Maybe that’s why he never talked to us about anything. I should be a better big sister.
I look down and see Jewel’s got her blanket. I haven’t seen that in a while.
“You okay, J.?”
She just nods, and snuggles up more. I take an afghan off the back of the couch, which Grandma Turner crocheted for us, and toss it over the both of us. I grab the clicker and change the channel. It was a cop show, and lots of people were getting shot and stuff.
“Hey,” Mom says from the armchair. “I was watching that.”
I nod my head toward Jewel.
Mom rolls her eyes. “Oh, she doesn’t even pay attention.”
I raise an eyebrow at my mom, surprised she doesn’t realize that Jewel hears everything. Just like I do.
I put it on Hannah Montana, and Mom raises her hands, making a little annoyed snort, and then wanders off to the computer.
Jewel shifts under my arm, and I remember holding her when she was a baby, and I felt so grown up. Eventually I realized that I did more for my baby sister than most kids, how I fed her a lot when Mom would get distracted, or Mom would be taking her extra-long naps, or be really upset or something and not notice the time, and how I’d change Jewel’s diaper when it started to hang down.
But she was such a funny little baby, and I liked how she pulled my hair and tried to stuff it in her mouth. I didn’t mind so much, except for when I had a lot of homework it was hard to remember to check on her all the time.
It’s a relief now that she’s bigger, and can remember these things by herself.
Of course, if Casey and my dad get married, they’ll have another baby and maybe it’ll start all over again. I’ll probably have to babysit so they can go out on dates. And they’ll probably get all kissy-face and stuff.
Awkward.
“Angel?” Jewel says, her voice extra young sounding because she’s so tired.
“Yeah, J?”
“Why did Dylan leave?”
“I dunno. I guess you can ask him.”
“Doesn’t he love us?”
“ ’Course he does. Boys are dumb, though. They don’t think.”
“Dylan’s not dumb.”
I sigh. “Everyone’s dumb sometimes.”
I actually hate Hannah Montana. So I pick up my phone with my free hand and send a one-handed text about the big party.
Mom suddenly stands up from the computer and snatches her coat off the couch. “I’m walking to the store,” she says.
She asks me if I need anything, and I wave her away with my phone.
“Keep an eye on Jewel,” she says.
Duh. What else is new?
Chapter 29
Michael
My father and I have not spoken in miles and hours, except