Unaccustomed Earth - Jhumpa Lahiri [39]
They stepped back into the air-conditioned room and he opened the suitcase they were sharing for the weekend. He pulled out the thick envelope containing the invitation, directions, a small map of Langford’s campus with the ceremony and reception locations marked with a highlighter. He sat on the bed, leaning against a pile of extremely soft pillows, sinking down. Then he looked at the digital clock that was beside the paper pyramid on the bedside table. “The wedding starts in an hour. We should get pillows like this at home.”
“Then we’d better get ready.” Megan regarded him with a look of professional concern, as if he were a patient on her rounds. “What’s wrong?”
“Nothing. I was just hoping we’d have some time beforehand, to go for a walk or swim in the lake. I was thinking about a swim all the way up here. I didn’t think the traffic would be so bad.”
“We’ll swim tomorrow,” she said. “We have a whole weekend.”
He nodded. “Right.” He stood up and went into the bathroom, to shave and to shower. These everyday rituals felt like a chore. He was uninspired to put on his suit and socialize with ghosts from his adolescence. He undressed, then stood in front of the mirror spreading shaving cream on his face. Since Monika’s birth three years ago, this was their first trip without either of the girls. They were overdue for a vacation. Normally, every summer, they rented a cabin for two weeks in the Adirondacks. But Megan was in the last year of her residency at Mount Sinai, and her schedule did not allow it. She’d just finished a rotation in the cardiac intensive-care unit, working thirty-six-hour shifts, returning to the apartment at dawn, falling asleep just as Amit and the girls were beginning their day. Amit, who worked as the managing editor for a medical journal, had a more flexible schedule. Summer was a slow time at the journal, and since June he’d been overseeing the girls’ breakfasts and baths, scheduling playdates, dropping Maya off at a day camp in the mornings and picking her up again. Reducing their nanny’s hours for the summer months was one of the ways he and Megan had decided to cut back on expenses; the down payment on their new apartment, two stories of a brownstone on West Seventy-fifth Street, had depleted their savings.
He sensed Megan’s relief at not having Maya and Monika around, at being free. Amit wanted to share that relief, that sense of escape he’d been looking forward to all summer, after the invitation to Pam’s wedding had come and they’d made their plan. But now that they were alone he was nagged by the thought of Monika’s runny nose, and wondered if his mother-in-law would remember that strawberries gave Maya a rash. He was tempted to ask Megan, but he stopped himself, knowing that she would accuse him of not trusting his in-laws. As a parent she was less fussy, less cautious than he was. On her days off she indulged them, baking with them in the kitchen, not minding if they skipped dinner because they were too full of cookies and cake. He knew that it was partly out of guilt that she tended to be lenient, but it was also her nature. She had not been horrified, as he had, when Maya found a wad of flattened chewing gum at the playing ground and put it into her mouth, or when Monika wandered off during a picnic they were having in Central Park and began playing, with her tiny fingers, with dog shit. Megan laughed at such moments, wiping off their hands and faces, convinced that her children could survive anything. She spent her days with people who were fighting for their lives, and could not be shaken by a scraped elbow or a hundred-degree fever.
It was Amit, who had studied enough about the body to know its inherent fragility, who had dissected enough cadavers to know what a horizontal